News of Depersonalization Disorder Forum

(i dont know where to post this, so i guess ill post it here since i consider myself a survivor of trauma?)



recently something really strange has been happening to me: whenever somebody starts talking to me, it takes my brain a while to register what the words mean? like i know that they are saying something and i hear that they are saying something, its just i dont "understand" it so i have had ...

I feel so heavy and disconnected and lacking vibrancy, I never ever felt this way before and I'm so sad and almost disappointed in myself :(
I'm still desperately craving...vibrations, I don't know how to put it, and I can get them but still...I don't feel like myself anymore, nothing is the same and unlike before I can see all the truly bad implications of things.
I feel less connected to my family, father especially.
Lately ...

Hello all,

I am BrokenRecord and I have mostly been active in the OCD forums 6 to 7 months ago due to my anxiety attacks back then.. I have quited to visit this forums just because keeping in the loop of reading posts and asking reassurance was everything but help to my illness.
But now, I am back with a whole other kind of I really don't knows..

Im having a very weird kind of ...

Hi, sorry im not doing an introductory post first, we've had a few different accounts on here before(bad with passwords). promise ill do one at some point.

(sorry in advance if im a bit rambly or scattered but im going through alot right now)

so on january 10th we were on a bus coming back from a routine doc appointment. it had been just me and j for awhile now(used to be a system of ...

This is probably going to be long and confusing.
I think i may have depression for around a year now maybe? but in the last 6 month it has gotten worse (if i even have it). For ages ive felt like ive been waiting for something to happen and i dont know what btw. When im around people i feel really uncomfortable, im constantly thinking about what my face looks like or how i pronounce ...

So for the past 2 weeks I have done nothing but lay in bed and thought. And thought and thought. And yet more thinking. All of it philosophical in nature. About numerous topics ranging from utopia, morality, god, the soul, meaning of life, evolution, whether life is suffering, social darwinism, you name it, I have probably obsessed over it. My parents are worried about me but everytime they try to talk to me I push ...

Lately over the past two years I've begun to notice that when people around me speak, even in english, it sounds to me like a garbled alien language. I'm having more and more difficulty understanding direct conversations, and my sense of self has gone away almost completely. I only feel safe and whole when I'm by myself in peace and quiet and I'm not sure what this is called or how to describe it, really. ...

Hi. I'm 32 year old. I suffered from depression and anxiety now for 17 years and never try anything to heal myself. I've spent my whole 20s hiding in my room and isolated. Now this year my dog died and my dad got cancer so I went through lot of emotional stress and cried every day. Then I was overwhelmed by thoughts of death, death of my parents, how time flies, how things are not ...

I was wondering if anyone experienced blank mind to the extent that it was like tabula rasa and the world was completely brand new and ideas had to be formed by reading other people’s ideas, novels, works, media. It’s like my memories flooded into me but they didn’t feel like mine because I was this new being.....overtime I’ve clutched tightly onto the memories because without them I was nothing, no self at all, no originality. ...