Hey, I had a "psychotic" episode back in 2013 where I was feeling very elated and attempted to castrate myself with a microwave. It obviously didn't work. The next year I got suicidal and angry eventually attacking my mother. I got help with a psychiatrist but it stopped as an adult.
Now, I'm having fears of self-enucleation. The psychiatrist did say I mavyhave body dsymorphia along with aspergers/ocd. I know it's probably just my mind ...