News of Cutting and Self Injury Forum

So I've been self harming for the larger portion of 5 years (15 when I started, 20 now) and back within the first year or 2 my mom found out. She flipped out (kind of understandable from someone who can't really understand it) and wanted to send me to all sorts of counselors and therapists and such.
But I just told her I stopped even though i just started doing it on my legs and ...

I am selfish and hypocritical and useless. Nobody needs or wants me around. I get upset at others for or tell them not to do things that I do all the time with no intention to stop. I don't care about how what I'm doing affects others. I really don't see why it should. I don't understand. I think I mostly don't get how people can care about me, but it irritates me even though ...

I was wondering if anyone had thought through the different methods of self harm before choosing one, then doing it?

I am 40 yrs old, a mother and married for a long time. I only started actively self harming 2 years ago. I don't cut and believe I will probably never cut. But the methods I have chosen have left me with long term health issues.

I am just confused as to why it started ...

I am a teen who self harms, my parent don`t know I self harm and I'm not ready to tell them yet. In a few days I have to go swimming with my family and they're going to see my cuts. I've tried to get out of it by telling them that I feel ill but it's not working. What do I do? Please help! I really don't want them to find out.

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Well, I overdosed on perphenazine (antidepressant) and had a spasm. It was terrifying. It wasnt immediate becaude my mom gave me some sleeping pill with benadryl in it to help me sleep, but if she hadn't, it might have killed me via cardiac arrest. It was a stupid reason for nearly killing myself, but I did have a lot of other stuff racked up on it. I also cant stop cutting or starving ...

Does anyone have a more intense urge to self harm when having bouts of insomnia? I've been sleeping pretty well for the last few months but still have been self harming, but now that my insomnia has been acting up in the last few days the urges are starting to intensify quite a bit. Just wondering if anyone else has had this issue?

This may sound strange but is it possible for someone to self injure themselves without them actually knowing they are doing it as in their minds are somewhere else?Does that make sense?Sorry I'm not good at explaining things...I'm still just trying to figure out what's wrong with me.I never self injured before well at least I don't think I ever did i really don't know anymore....sorry I'm just thinking about the past at the moment...sorry ...

Was in the shower, couldn't stop thinking about how much of a dirty disgusting pos I am. Group was cancelled today because we got a bunch of snow too. Considering calling the hotline but I don't feel in crisis mode anymore.

I can't seem to grasp why people will cut themselves.

I simply don't get it, why not intake drugs or tattoo or something ? I simply don't get the true reasons aside from "shame" and "anger" idk.

can anyone enlighten me? this old boy just wants to know!

Does anyone find that self injury urges are strongest when you're feeling empty? I've traced that pattern through my own habits; times of deep emotional pain don't seem to bring out the impulse much. I've heard of it occurring out of a need to relieve stress, which indicates urges in times of hardship, as well as to satisfy the "need to feel something," which indicates urges in an undesirably unaffected state.

Or, do you find ...