News of Cutting and Self Injury Forum

well, here i am again,feel at home in this forum thread.have a few probs, those of u who kno me....if not, rapid cycle bi po, ocd , am an extremely ummmm....."damaging " cutter.......have had same old swings lately, self med as usual......and am starting to hear a freight train coming.....a total bp crash.....evry time has appenned b4....hospitals,psych. wards,stitches,transfusions......"getting the works" i hace come to call it......most bi po's can handle cycling, even RC, but u ...

I had to go to the hospital last night. I cut my arm and someone called an ambulance. they told me its because they care but if they really cared they'd just let me end this suffering.

I can't take this anymore I just want it to just stop.

I used to keep a piece of oak 2x4 in my room for times when frustration was so bad that I didn't know what to do. I used it to whack my head till I was dazed. It's been a few weeks since the last time, and I tossed it.

I didn't know why I did it. I didn't really feel better by doing it. Is it an attempt to exchange one pain for another? ...

last nite i got mad at my dad
i went in my room
and erased my arm
i have the word hate on it
this girl at school said it was bad
but for some reason
i liked doing it
is there something wrong with me?

I seem to have a little but seem like a major issue for myself. Up until this year I thought I was a normal but quiet person. Until I found out I was Bi and also that I didn't feel like my birth gender, I didn't feel like the opposite gender though I seem to have a more neutral personality that leans slightly to seeming to be female, I am ok with how I am ...

i know i need help

have an emergency appt with my CPN and pdoc at 1.30 today so only have to make it through 3 hours, but am struggling

i have cut and want to cut again, i want to cut so badly that i die, i want to OD, I want to jump infront of the train, i want to turn the gas cooker on and sit in the kitchen and suffocate

help me ...

dear god, i made a unintentional mistake last nite on another site i use.....similar to this one.....i posted a poll without asking a mod for permission.......and the icing on the cake......it was a poll asking how many times a month do u feel like self harming!!!!!am soooooo upset at the damage i may have done to innocent users.....at the time it was my idea to collect data on how i compare to others in that ...

do u all feel the same feeling of relief and like.......unstressed after severe cutting? for me, the more damage i do, the longer i feeel better after.......which has led me to the point of having to get immed. med help after or next am......due to fact i go for the bone, this voice in me says " u wimp, is that all u can do? show me somethin'!" then i go right off and angrily ...

Hello,

If you are in a crisis, post here. Hopefully others will jump in and help each other with support. Please try and keep posts positive, but truthful.

Self-harm always has an origin. People who self harm have been traumatized somehow.

I know this is a monster to beat. It is a behavior than can be controlled. I cut and I did not know why. Once I understood Why, it helped a huge bunch.

peace. ...

since my last episode on easter, ive had the stitches out, and am almost dissapointed that they r healing.....the total release i get when i do serious damage is like a drug....i want to cut so bad, but if i get caught 1 more time, blue paper into state hosp.......i am at a crossroads, do i embrace this ....or do i fight? i always fel so much better after i cut.......cud use some input from ...