News of Cutting and Self Injury Forum

OK.
So, after many years of not being weak and emotional, I think I've cracked.
I'm not really sure what I'm hoping to achieve by discussing this here
I guess I'm hoping that venting in a safe place where no one knows me will help.

The main route of my broken brain is my dad. He was diagnoses with terminal cancer a year ago (Christmas eve of all times). He has a grade 4 glioblastoma. ...

Hiya!

(I just wanted to start off by saying I'm really sorry if this is posted in the wrong forum, eek. I am definitely a complete newbie in this giant online community.)

I've been experiencing weird, rapid (1-2 hour) ups and downs. It's the downs that really scare me - it's like I get stuck in a black hole of doom and death and I can't see anything or pull myself out. Everything negative is ...

So Im trying to cope again with my urge to cut I thought I'd beaten when I was a teenager.

But back then I didn't have my pain condition and didn't have a disorder that weakened my emotional inner strength.

I know with my trigeminal neuralgia that emotional pain and stress can trigger my physical pain condition but how am I supposed to stop the stress/physical pain and emotional pain from stopping the trigger to ...

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I'm a 20 year old guy and at the moment my life is a mess. I have OCD and I guess it's now POCD because I have pedo thoughts and feel pedo attractions. Also my attraction to adults is minor at the moment. This makes me very unhappy. I don't even know for sure it's my OCD or I am an actual pedo but either way I suffer from it.

I also quitted college ...

I'm a 24 year old male who has suffered from chronic leg pain for around two years now. Regardless of the amount of exercise or movement I do, my leg constantly feels a combination of nerve and joint pain that I can easily compare to any broken bone I've ever had, but every second of every day. I'm taking strong PRESCRIPTION pain killers (tramadol, amitripti, paracetamol, naproxen) several times a day (maximum dosage of each) ...

I have been stressed lately. What else is new I guess, lol. But I'm also homesick, even though I can't go home anymore and I know this. I have not done any SH in about a year and 3 months now. Last night I dreamed that I did though. I am trying to find a way to acknowledge my feelings without getting too tangled up in them, but it's hard. I really am feeling tired ...

i have been wondering and vaguely agonizing in my detached way whether i should tell my best friends and family that i am liable and planning to kill myself at some point in the future. my issue is that i know it's kind of an eventuality more than a possibility for me, so i carry the guilt of foreknowledge. i feel like because it isn't an implusive thing that i am obgilated to give the ...

when someone hurts me emotionally i get very violent and suicidal. i try to destroy everything important to me: the relationship (screaming and terrible behavior), my own body, my sentimental possessions, and my necessities like my phone and laptop for work.

i know this behavior won't change anything or make me un-hurt. i know it definitely won't make them suddenly care about me. i know its abusive. is it borderline personality disorder? idk.

i control ...

I already made a post on PsychForums, and on multiple forums about my situation. But things just got worse. I recently used the Crisis Text Line for advice and the people I spoke to gave me phone numbers. But the problem is, I cannot call them because they'll appear on the phone bill. I cannot go to a therapist because my mom refuses to take me to one. She even refuses to let me go ...

i've been trying to work out how to word this because it is very hard for me to explain myself when it comes to this particular subject, but all i can really think of to sum this up is that i am confused. the first time i thought about killing myself was when i was 11 and moving away from my first best friend. moving wasn't new to me (we did that once a year), ...