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i believe i've been mentally abused by my stepmother. for years and years, there were a million things i could name that provided a consistent, damaging pattern of emotional invalidation and manipulation. her moods affected the entire vibe of the family, my dad worked away from the home for weeks at a time during my middle school years, my brother, sister and i have almost no meaningful relationships with each other, we've had emotional problems ...

so my sexuality confusion has been going on for quite many years n i'm fed up with it. it's like i dont know who i am. though i wish i were 100% straight like some jock. muscular n athletic.

So I haven’t posted on the forums in a while, but I figured I would come here because I recently had an issue that led to a big rage. As a 20 year old homosexual man, I will admit that I am sexually active. Also, as an adult I will always own my sexuality and sexual health because if I ever want to be healthy mentally I need to be honest and responsible. Now recently ...

I'm an adult now but still in need of my parents. All they do is abandon me. My mom is completely toxic and my dad can only love me from a distance. Idk what to do with myself.

I feel like my father is ashamed to even be seen with me. My mom pushes me away. Idk it still hurts so much. I wish I could just disappear.

Lots of new faces but just wanted to say Hi to anyone that remembers me. Mind you it has been a while. I used to be a Green mod on AvPD, then my diagnosis changed to BPD. A much better fit for me though I am definitely one of the quiet ones. Found the change of diagnosis difficult though (I'd been told it was AVPD for 9 years!) so needed to take some time to ...

I guess I'm impulsive, idk

I don't want to kms tho, I do want to be free.
I have this narcissistic vibe to me at times, at others I hate myself for it and am sorry.
Hate my life and $#%^.

Tho other times I blame everyone else for my mistakes and don't see it as my fualt.


In rl I stay quite from all this $#%^ I say online and act introverted.

Hi everyone,

I've been a lurker for years but absolutely feel the need to post seeking your advice. First, I've come to realize I experience intense, asexual crushes; this has been going on since I was a middle school student, and has nearly always been with me. The highs in the beginning of the crush stages are absolutely delightful, and I don't want anything else when I find *that* person. I become on cloud nine ...

The pattern is that I feel depressed and lonely and worthless for a long time, then I find someone who seems to be similar to me and have the same needs or they like me, then I get attached to them and literally feel stupefied when spending time with them, content and peaceful. Until they get tired of my neediness and ditch me. Wash rinse repeat

Anyone can relate?

So basically to give a bit of background, in May, my great grandma died and ever since that event I started to go downhill emotionally. I was never actually diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder before this point, but a lot of the signs were there. I started seeing a new psychiatrist and she gave me the formal diagnosis. I suspect my therapist already knew that is what I had, but said she didn't want to ...

I’m not expecting a diagnosis when I post this, I just need some hopefully non judgemental advice. This may be a little long winded and I will talk about some pretty bad things so apologies.

I’m currently 23 years old and I’ve been in the mental health system since I was 13. I’ve been fighting for at least some sort of full diagnosis for the past three years as I’ve been told by many people ...