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Soooo... Im going to lose it and go on a murderous rampage here soon if something doesn't change. I am bored out of my mind and I've been single all year; its getting hard to hold this $#%^ in anymore and keep up the happy mask. I need a hug.

I've felt so irritated and trapped lately. This sucks. I'm tired of having ######6 anxiety every single second of the day. I'm sick of my husband being lazy and irritating me. I'd like to just sit down and be left alone. I have no patience left for him. There's no reason I should have to ask him to do something for 5 straight days before it gets done. AND he whines about it the whole ...

I'm finding it hard to control my paranoia.. my mom (who helps me now but basically facilitated a pedophile in the family abusing me for 10 yrs; she knew about it but ignored it basically) anyway, she has got a new boyfriend and he's trying to be all chummy with me, which is fine sometimes, but lately hes been around alot and after I exploded at my mom the other day, she asked him not ...

um.. so when i go to post ect.. up pops a box saying "warning-security certificate invalid.. does not match the site" or something along those lines.. can someone please explain?? me no understandy..

am I being watched/hacked?? *crawls back in shell*
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Hi everyone,
I am a 23 year old woman who was misdiagnosed with Bi Polar for 3 years (oh the fun I had with that) and finally correctly diagnosed with BPD 4 years ago. I have been to every type of therapy imaginable, been on every antipsychotic known to humankind, and have every grain of knowledge of my issues and how to overcome them, yet, when I need to utilise any of the things that ...

I did, and that is... a 150 calorie cookie which, for me, is about a minute or less of enjoyment, takes about 13 minutes of misery and boredom to burn off on the arc trainer.

This post is absolutely bpd related, because I love the cookie when I'm eating it, and I hate the cookie when I'm done eating it.

So Have bipolar and have spent a lot of time in treatment. During this time I have made some friends who have BPD and I'm struggling to understand the illness. Particularly the need for being the sickest (sorry of that's the wrong way of putting it, I don't mean to offend).

I have two friends, in particular, who have BPD and I have noticed over the years that they really quite like going to a&e ...

I can't say I'm really feeling upset or anything amazing tonight... I just can't sleep and wanted to post some idle thoughts.

I'm actually a little surprised how 'level' I've been feeling today; given current events, I'm not really sure I've got cause to be calm about anything. But hey, I guess freaking out isn't going to do anything good for me, so here's to a moment of calm waters! Always before the storm...

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Things aren't even going bad, really. My boyfriend and I are getting along about as good as a non/BPD can...my family helps so much with my little boy while I work, I don't even have to pay them and they watch him 50 hours a week. Work is good except for my director and that is being dealt with....so why am I so damn unhappy? Why do I feel like I am all alone and ...

hi,
i havent written on here for a while, but recently everything has started going pear shaped and i feel like i need your support again.
I've been regularly having thoughts about killing myself. It just seems the easier way. my life is so hard and so meaningless, and it just feels full of stress and pain. I just dont see the point in living it. I mean really, what IS the point? I feel ...