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I sometimes feel like I don't get acknowledged and get upset when I seem to kill threads. I guess I'm still upset due to what happened with the very first thread I ever started here. It seems like a shared too much information all at once (which I always do) and people, not having the patience to read everything I said at once, didn't really take the time to understand what I was talking about. ...

So, I've been seeing a doctor for psychiatric care on and off since I was maybe 12 or 13, I'll be 22 on Wed. I went many years without care during that time though and in my time have seen a couple doctors who have all seemed to disagree with each other on what is "wrong". Personally I believe it's all anxiety (Which is why I originally started going to the doctor, for a fear ...

She said where i had suffered trauma as a child, thats probably what caused it, and gave me some tips to help me cope with it. She said the emotional numbness could be caused by my schizophrenia, or possibly my meds. She said ask my pdoc because he prescribes the medication and he would know. But she said that i probably don't have BPD per say, but some of the traits of BPD. Its not ...

I am reading "Sometimes I Act Crazy: Living with Borderline Personality Disorder" and the first section is on abandonment fears. The example cases in this book involve people who were abandoned early in life and some of their fears came out of that. I've never quite felt like I met this criteria entirely. I don't fear being alone. I like being alone, and I know it is my destiny to be alone and misunderstood. Nevertheless, ...

I have two friends who are my "level" in child-likeness and childishness. For ages 45, 52 and 70 replace these figures with ages 18, 18 and 23.

I feel conflicted.

S. is probably a genius. She is self made and has honor. These are her negative schemas:

-overtly critical of others grooming and appearance
-critical and judgemental of the character flaws of others
-angry all the time-
-the intelligence is "in your face" -the ONE ...

I feel less bored and less empty. Teeny tiny progress.

so I have a long family hx of dysfunction, neglect, abuse on many levels, etc. I grew up with a mom who seemed to be in constant state of depression, and therefore it was a constant question of her love for me as it was not something I heard much...affection was also non-existent...yet I loved her, but it is like the emotions are blunted...I am so confused right now on how to deal with everything. ...

My therapist is away having a baby. She left right after we started talking about techniques to deal with BPD and as I was just getting into a new relationship after a pretty intense break up. I was hoping things could just stay calm until she got back, but why would life be so kind to me? Now everything sucks, I've lost my composure and I feel helpless.

My ex comes around every so often ...

I've gotten myself into so many messes with men and the negative feelings that are roused in me are just becoming so overwhelming I'm constantly feeling suicidal.

A couple of weeks ago I saw a guy I've known for years but hadn't seen in years. We have a bit of history - we were friends and then briefly involved but it didn't work out because he wasn't over his ex and screwed things up for ...

Due to this BPD, relationships are different from what someone without this has. If that makes sense.
Seen as everything is black and white for me, no grey zone. My relationship with my Fiance is intense and I feel awful about it, yet cannot control my impulses. I cause arguments at little things that he hasn't done wrong yet I cannot react too properly.
I desperately seek his love and approval for everything. If he ...