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Sorry I just need to get this out. I was trying to see whether there was a topic I could post this in, but oh well.

So I've been thinking that I might be bisexual for a few years, but I was never romantically or sexually involved with a girl. I never even kissed one. I wished I could because I thought just one kiss could make me less confused. Now I'm engaged to a ...

I felt like my voices were going to come back. when that happens my stomach starts churning, i can't focus, and i started becoming paranoid. I hate the feeling of mental illness, especially when its so bad, it makes you sick when you think its coming on. I literally feel so sick when it first starts, or is trying to start, i can't function well. I didn't hear voices, but i am worried they are ...

Hey, I don't know exactly how to ask this, but how can we get our own stable identity? What do you do to be stable and how can you develop your personality naturally and not try to be something?

I realized that when I’m not only one thing looks like I don’t “fit” in myself, but I don’t know who I am or how to act, so I always fall into a stereotype, when something ...

The following is a little something that I wrote in an attempt to effectually capture and communicate the very essence of the borderline personality, and well as try to make sense of the otherwise tumultuous whirlwind that's going on inside my head. Please lend me your thoughts and opinions, if you so desire. I posted this on my tumblr, and so I figured that I'd go ahead and post it here, as well.
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I'm sorry I haven't been around at all recently. School started and I've been sick on top of it, and just haven't been feeling too well. But (hopefully), I should be back now! I've been a little bit better, got myself on a schedule at least, and getting a bit better at controlling my outbursts. It's a good start. I've missed this place, and I hope you've all been well.

Do you live for yourself or someone else?

How do you think it's SUPPOSED to be (if we want to get the most out of life)?

Well, my story begins in childhood. when i was a kid, I heard voices and saw things. I have always been schizophrenic. when i went to school i saw things on the walls, Numbers. Well one night when i was 5 years old I had hallucinations to the point i couldnt tell where i was. it happened four different times. i woke up in the middle of the night, and i was in a shopping ...

Hi everyone, I was very recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety. Lately it seems like a huge wave of melancholy has washed over me and when I'm in a bad mood I explode on everyone around me, especially my girlfriend. I often say hurtful things that I really don't mean and I don't realize what I've said until after. I accuse her of cheating on me and I get really ...

I was just wondering why we as borderlines, do this with others? Atleast I do.

I know the idealizing others, atleast for me, is wanting to find that perfect protector and nurturer. It took me a long time and a lot of soul searching to realize it's because I never had that growing up. I never connected or bonded with my mother or family growing up, and I never had my emotional needs met.

But ...

I'm in a funk become... depressed,
health issues, overeating.

I'm going to juice cleanse for a week
or so. It always pulls me out of my funk
and helps me be more present.

Wish me luck ! The first few days suck!