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I've given up on the mental health service. I've just had another major crisis and they didn't do anything. They didn't change my medication even though it isn't working anymore. They didn't admit me to hospital even though i was severely depressed and suicidal. They didn't even give me any suggestions of how to help myself other than the usual "have a cup of tea/have a hot bath/go for a walk".
So...
Does anyone here ...

Death seems to be the answer when I feel trapped in my own skin. The thoughts of killing myself have resided in me since I was a child. I am 31 years old and I still have no clue who I am. When people meet me, they are amazed at my talents and wonder why I'm not famous. When I think of my talents, I feel like a failure. Death is an idea that comforts ...

Hello All~

I wanted to take a moment and introduce myself. I am new to this forum and it's been some time that I've discussed my BPD or even blogged about it. I am 40 years old and a single mother of 2 young children.

My BPD started as far back as I can remember and boy my long term memory is shot. I had a fairly normal childhood yet it was abusive but I ...

...They are putting a Starbucks in my local Ingles, less than 2 miles from my house. OMG YAY! No more having to drive 30 miles to the closest one when I get a craving for Starbucks. And no more having to drink stupid Mcdonald's crap frappes as a substitute when I can't go 30 miles just for a drink. No more having to deal with stupid college town traffic to go to the closest one. ...

I wasn't depressed until now. The portable music got cut off because the cellphone ran out of power.

I feel bad now.

I have noticed some things trigger it in me, such as some songs and also sometimes people say things and do things that trigger me. and when i'm triggered i get really angry. Can BPD also cause you to be really happy and talkative? I change my personality all the time. I have a constant shifting way i view myself. Does that have anything to do with BPD? Also, i tell people sensitive details about ...

I'm starting to think maybe there is something really wrong with me. I know i have traits of BPD and I have severe fear of abandonment because of stuff that has happened to me because of my parents abandoning me in my early life. My mom was really abusive to me growing up and her abuse has trickled into a lot of other parts of my life. I've always had a low self esteem.

I ...

anything I might have enjoyed a few months ago is gone. I'm lucky if i leave the house besides to go to work or therapy.

I have numerous body problems that cannot be sorted out for whatever reasons and on top of that, the stress of it all costing a lot of money that I don't have is getting to me too.

neck, shoulder, back, wrists (after seeing a chiropractor and him "snapping them, they ...

I've beaten these $$$###@@@@

Earphones
Music on Winamp
Cellphone

They are kept out. I smile while organizing. I smile.

Bastards.


'Hah

Pretty please?

I'm just done, it's not even 11am yet and I'm done.

I feel so ridiculously empty. Being awake is painful.

Josh wants to help, but I don't know how to explain to him what empty feels like. I don't know how to explain I can't just snap out of it.

On top of this Boo is in a mood and is getting upset at the drop of a hat.