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Hello I'm 20 years old and I am struggling with who I am at the moment. I know I am mentally unstable but I don't know why or what it is. I have horrible mood swings and I'm getting worse. I'm going from having days where I'm 50/50 to days where I'm down constantly. I've been like this since January and was diagnosed with depression in March but it's gotten worse.

There are days where ...

Have any of you been able to pursue a normal life? Have things looked up since diagnosis/treatment? I wasn't diagnosed until 23 and my whole life has been a train wreck perhaps until age 18 and then it has gotten slightly more even perhaps due to maturity and more responsibilities. But the pain, ambivalence, fear, emptiness, and hell inside hasn't subsided and my patten of ruining relationships and alienating people hasn't stopped repeating itself. I ...

Sorry about this, I was on YouTube watching videos on BPD and such and read a comment which made my mood switch... I will copy it to the end of my post.. but only really read if you want, I do no want to force anyone with TW...
I read it and it's made me feel down thinking "Why is my Fiance with me?.. Why would he marry me in about a week... He doesn't ...

Due to my BPD, as most know what it's like, everything is black & white..no gray.
So I have a child with my Partner, we're involved with Social Services due to me being 'Mentally Unstable'. We have been seeing a Psychologist. She's been delving in to my past to find out why I am, how I am.
I just still sit wishing my Partner could be me for even a day... just to understand how ...

I'm very upset right now and distraught. This past year, there have been several things that have happened to greatly upset me. The first is that my boyfriend and I that dated for 1.5 years broke up. It was absolutely heart breaking for me. It's been almost 8 months, and I'm still not 100% over him. It was truly very hard on me and it caused me a lot of depression and suicidal thinking.

The ...

I was just reading a thread elsewhere on the board earlier today, and it was mentioned that borderlines typically blame everyone else for their problems/plite.

I realize I do this quite a bit myself. Like for instance, blaming my mom for my childhood and that I never got to have a normal one. I do blame her for kicking off my BPD. But, I really do believe that. *shrug*
I've mentioned it before, but I ...

as part of my degree, I have been looking at the DSM 5 traits and how I feel I exhibit..Any thoughts on it?

A. Significant impairments in personality functioning manifest by:

1. Impairments in self functioning (a or b):

a. Identity: Markedly impoverished, poorly developed, or unstable self-image, often associated with excessive self-criticism; chronic feelings of emptiness; dissociative states under stress.

* I feel I have an identity in the professional aspect and spiritual aspect ...

had to do some research on the movie girl interrupted..

feel worse now..

Based on the authors, I feel like no matter what good I do,Im still going to be that BPD psycho. I felt I have improved but after readin, maybe now


Oh by the way..I sucked up my fear and got an aprtment in Oklahoma! I living having my own place. Its great

I'm longtime diagnosed with BPD, but newly diagnosed with ADHD as well. Does anyone else have both? How do you cope? What meds work for you? I don't take anything currently, but want as much info as possible before I start. I've tried researching it, but I can't seem to find a whole lot.

Also, I gotta say, I'm kinda pissed that my parents failed to realize this. They always told me I was "crazy", ...

I do this a lot. I hate my acquaintances, colleagues because i think high of myself and put myself on pedestal. then if i see an arrogant person on TV fighting with others, i'm full of self hatred. Like my friends could've fought against me and told me to 'SHUT UP' but they didnt. and then i think that i am the worst person and i dont deserve to live for hurting my friends.

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