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Hello everyone.
I'm an only child of two hard-working doctors, which meant I have spent most of my childhood/teen years alone, craving their presence and attention. Add to it the fact that I had medical issues (surgeries when I was little) and lacked social experience due to being guarded at all times and not having a chance to interact with peers, leading to being severely bullied at middle school.
I have grown up since then, ...

I’m starting to think I just can’t have any close friendships.

I get obsessed with people so easily.

I had two favourite people who both left, then got too attached to my boss. After all that I thought I was getting stable but recently I became friends with someone then had to pull away as I knew I was going to get obsessed and make her into a new FP.

I’ve had another friend for ...

Me and my partner are causing each other a lot of pain. We love each other so much but we're triggering each others mental health problems.

We're both having suicidal thoughts and I am acting out due to my eupd, when I am perceiving abandonment or rejection. I smashed a bottle on the ground today and told a woman, who asked my partner if she was ok when she walked off crying, to 'not get ...

I feel a bit lonely, and I would like it if I made a friend who fully understands me, but at the same time, I rage at the thought of someone understanding me. Also every time I get close to someone I seem to split unknowingly, and never talk to them? uhh


also I'm way too attached to my FP (-:

How do you stop crying over little things? how do I stop being paranoid over the smallest things? splitting or getting triggered at the slightest change of tone, choice of words and late replies? like ugh, I need this to stop. I can't seem to go on with my day without thinking about my partner and wanting to ball my eyes out. Every time they seem to reassure me, the thoughts always find something for ...

I am 28 yrs. old and currently in the process of applying for SSI/SSDI due to my failing attempts to get a handle on my diagnoses of BPD, MDD, PTSD, and potentially agoraphobia/SAD (Dx pending). Mosty I'm just desperately seeking reassurrance from any sources that I can, being that the process itself is a veritable well of anxiety and endless hopelessness/despair. Im aware that no two individual cases are alike, but i was hoping to ...

Let's call him P. From day one, P (who is about a year younger than I am) has been respectful, encouraging, and just a darn sweetheart. I was rather aggressive with him in the beginning, even indulging in my baser qualities so as to create a stark contrast between him and myself, creating a sturdy wall (I thought). I hated how nice he was because past therapists who had been concerned with being excessively nice ...

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I'm experiencing exteme guilt at this present time- but I'm unable to work out whether it's justified or how to forgive myself.
Anyway I split up from my first love 6 years ago. It was a very difficult relationship (I didn't know I was borderline) I blamed him for everything that went wrong as he cheated on me on at the beginning and I felt heartbroken and the betrayal really validated my feelings of ...

so my career shifts from engineering to writing to teaching to back to engineering n so on.

reason why i shift
engineering:
pros: i feel like i'm transforming world.
cons: less salary. dont like to work around machines.

writing:
pros: i like it
cons: less salary
eventually the entire media/movie industry is run by mafia n my colleagues would say stories of drugs n alls so i felt corrupt working there. like i'm contributing to ...

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I’m new to this forum, first time posting. I have been diagnosed with Anxiety, Depression and mild OCD since the age of 12. However, I always felt that a diagnosis was missing. I am now 25 and Within the last year, I was diagnosed with BPD, and as I learn more and more, I realize that it completely describes what I seem to deal with daily and have dealt with for a very ...