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Hi everyone. Bpd here.
Ive been lurking here for sometime on and off identifying with the stories here. and I was comfortable just doing that it gave me a great sense of relief I’m not alone. But at the same time feeling sad that your all suffering. Xxxxx Now I’ve plucked up the courage to join and risk the pain of intimacy coz it got to the point where Im sick of running away from ...

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Wasn't really sure to register on here as generally i avoid talking about my issues as i find it shameful, embarrassing and in general i'm a very private person but for whatever reason decided to anyway although still not sure why i registered on here. I find there is always more females than males so find it hard to chat and generally avoid such places. Not that i have issue with females i think ...

When I am angry, feeling hurt or painful.. my heart will turn cold and the cruel side of me will come out.. 6 years ago, when I was still unaware of my BPD traits and have anger issues.. I used to throw my cat onto the floor when I was furious or I pressed hard on her when I got really upset.. I had real anger issues back then and I was not able to ...

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so today evening i decided to go to gym for the sake of it n the trainer wouldnt allow me cause i'm wearing trousers n not track pants.
i gave an excuse saying its my first time but he asked me to change n come.

i did get angry to some extent but i quietly walked out of there. no banging the door. no giving him any angry look.

i stomped back to my ...

The following image is from healthyplace.com and is representative of BPD. I'm looking for some input on how to interpret its meaning. Can anyone tell me what they think?

I hate heartbreak. I hate it with a passion. I am writing here so I can get an objective response to a very turbulent past two years that I spent with my ex whom I am very deeply still in love with, but who I am no longer with. I feel like I'm dying inside. Please give me feedback if this is in your eyes, for the best, or if I have spiraled into making ...

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I am still realitvley new to this site and was wondering if any of you also have issues accepting limitations? I have been told by many doctors that once I accept that I cannot handle any type of job or stress I will be happier. I need to not have such high standards for myself.

I have accepted I cant work fulltime, but I am struggling part time or I was and had to ...

Hi i’m curious if anyone else experiences this.

Does anyone else get triggered and feel like they are on fire which is accompanied by either suicidal happiness or intense rage or extreme depression. It physically hurts. The pain is concentrated the most in my chest and spreads out depending on how bad the attack is. It will go away within an hour or last for a day. No inbetween. Any insight on what this might ...

I don't know if I have BPD for sure but I thought I'd ask anyway. Three years ago when I started struggling with mental illness I laid all my problems on a friend of mine who was going through the same. I idolized them, thought they were perfect and could do know wrong. Spending time with them and feeling loved by them gave me highs and sometimes I'd feel jealous if I didn't get to ...

For so many years I’m living in my head.
And I came to realization sometimes that I’m so delusional. My life consists of me wake up in the morning and go online and talk to online people.
But I only talk to topics I like.
When asked what I’m passionate about. I only think of one thing. And none can relate to people.
I’m completely obsessed with a celebrity who I definitely obsessively stupidly worship ...