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resistance to change? hell yeah. i usually. feel like i'm going to die... and instead of getting used to it, it just gets worse every time! like its more and more of an affirmation that life is just transient and meaningless. i guess what youre talking about is different though, my main terror is people changing. that kills me. i just cant accept it.
but do you adjust okay? i mean, can you see that ...

I cant really tell if im bpd or not. I have alot of syptoms from the dsm-4, yet again ive had all the symptoms of depression and im not depressed, all the symptoms of avpd yet im not avpd and social phobia but im not htat either (according to a psychologist).
My thinking at first was i have some somatoform disorder, like its my disorder to think theres something wrong with me. But i rarely ...

i just don't seem to be able to grasp the idea that i'm young and so everything will be okay... my boyfriend of almost a year left me -- after so painstakingly holding onto me every time i tried to run. i bought so many plane tickets to other cities that i didn't end up using, packed my suitcase so many times, and he always came back and rescued me. yet i was right after ...

I dont know what to sat but that i need to talk to someone who has been through this or ust another person who is not a shrink.
MY HUSBAND DIED SUDDENLY LAST WEDNESDAY MY SON FOUND HIM AND THEN MYSELF I AM GOING RAZY WITHOUT HIM AND THERES A BUNCH OF CRAP MY IN LAWS ARE DOING TO AND I JUST DONT HAVE AYONE TO TALK TO. I JUST... I JUST DONT KNOW, IM ...

I am 36 years old. I have wanted to meet and stay with/marry "the right man" for a long time.

I dated lots of thugs, jerks, you name it. I also have treated a lot of my partners like sh(@, testing them, being emotionally abusive, until they left. Of couse at that point, I wanted them back and for a long tmie I regretted my driving them away.
Alomst 2 years ago I met a ...

....or, how I spent my summer vacation....(Summers are not good to me, I don't know why. A little sun, a little heat, a whole lot of crazy.... :roll: )

Let's see. It's pretty complex. Does anyone grow up in a normal, uncomplicated family? Probably not. Suffice it to say, between my home life and school, I was well-into dissociation and self-injury by the time I was ...

I haven't been diagnosed with BDP but I identify with all the criteria and often just feel so totally confused and seem to act differently around everyone, I feel like noone really knows who I am, I don't even know. I almost feel like I have no personality, I'm just a sponge..

Anyway, I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years. I met him through a friend and had never had a boyfriend at ...

Okay. Everyone says (and I believe) that I'm not supposed to be able to see "shades of grey," emotionally. That people are supposed to be all bad, or all good, for me.

And everyone says....that I'm not supposed to have object constancy, and I know I didn't, for a long, long time.

So what does it mean that I'm beginning to be able to see someone (people) as not just all good or all bad, ...

okay, firstly.. part of this i posted on a different part of the forum, but someone suggested i put here also, so i will..
firstly, i have a tendency to crave abuse when under stress/emotional pain.. i mean actual, physical abuse. i SI as well, but it doesn't work the same sometimes.. sometimes i feel like i need someone to hurt me really badly.. usually cuz i feel i deserve i guess.. but at the ...

Hello. I just wanted to tell you about the new BPD website that I put together.

http://www.butterflybpd.com

Its for anyone who would like to keep on close contact with other BPD suffers and contribute to a wide BPD chat community as well as a BPD diary system.

I hope to see you all there.

Best Wishes

8) Ray