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Whenever someone I'm close to is mad at me I get ridiculously scared. I don't know what to do or what to say to them because I'm deathly afraid they'll abandon me. I don't want to say the wrong thing and have them just up and leave me. I have a hard time distinguishing between appropriate and inappropriate so most of the time I apologize non-stop. The weird thing is that I rarely ever think ...

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I've been spending some time on the Asperger's Syndrome forum because I'm wondering if some of my issues are actually AS (as well as BPD). I first started wondering when I did an online test as a joke and I scored as having AS traits. I discussed it with my step-mum (who is a trained carer dealing with AS, autism, ADHD and other developmental disorders in children) and she admitted that she sees ...

I have Borderline traits, so I research BPD a lot. I have been reading up on splitting, and my therapist and I have concluded that I don't split people. However, I would like to understand it further, and I have some questions about it, if those of you with BPD would be so kind as to answer them.

1. When you split someone, do you really feel like you absolutely love them or absolutely hate ...

to justify his own bad behaviour.
In fact isn't BPD just people who have been hurt and reacting accordingly? I don't really understand.
I noticed my husband has read about this in the browser history and he uses the phrase walking on eggshells, you're always the victim all the time.
Well yeah, I am trapped, can't leave him due to children and money situation, he lies, gets us into debt, hides things from me, loses ...

I don't know how to survive anymore. Ive been spending the last 2 or 3 weeks trying so hard to hold myself together and be strong hoping my boyfriend would see the improvements and changes and have time to see that the person he fell in love with is still here and that we will be able to work things out. Last night he came home after i had rung him at work in tears ...

For a very long time I've been convinced I'm borderline.

I started reading everything thing I could about it. I was incredibly disappointed with the literature out there for it. I Hate You, Don't Leave Me portrays borderlines in such a negative light. So does Sometimes I Act Crazy. Even the titles of the books are condescending.

It seems like borderlines are looked at as difficult and a lost cause. I can't stand this.

So, ...

I wasn't going to post this but ###$ it, I'm curious.

My paranoia comes in waves over long periods of time, much like everything else. Usually I can manage just fine if I take a few extra precautions against letting it get the best of me. Locking doors, keeping windows closed, having some sort of constant mental distraction (music, tv, computer game, good book, etc).

Last week, I was hanging out with two of my ...

So I am fairly certain that I exhibit many symptoms that are in the criteria for BPD. Chaotic friendships, sudden feelings of anger hate, frustration, or sadness, daily suicidal thoughts. My moods are highly erratic and unstable. I also most likely have some sort of anxiety and depressive disorder. Well I suppose you probably get the picture. Things aren't good and I'm getting worse. I am specifically wondering how long it takes to get a ...

I have been told my doctors and counselors that i have bpd or bipolar, and for the first time i realized wow i have it. I mean, I thought i had it but i just realized that my actions were irrational and i thought they were normal so im really trying to watch myself. I just really cant believe it.