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I am evil right now. I know I'm not completely.. maybe its another mask, I disregard others completely because I can't stand to value them and then let them hurt me. I just yelled at my entire family, saying things like "f*** you... I f***ing hope you die, you useless, nasty f***." I'm horribly rude and abusive, and I'd be so ashamed if someone I cared about saw me like this.. it's just so toxic ...

Hello there all, new poster here. Just joined. I was wondering if anyone else out there suffers from the same problem I do. I am completely unmotivated. I mean to the extreme. I wake up in the morning, turn on my computer, play video games, eat, go to bed rinse and repeat. I'm unable to hold a job, my friends are all off at college and I have no desire to meet anyone new. I ...

In English, we were supposed to write a persuasive research paper. It was supposed to be on any topic we were interested in. I decided to write one asserting that bpd is underdiagnosed. When I had a one on one meeting with my professor about my rough draft, he seemed so curious about why I chose to write about this topic, so I just admitted I have bpd. He told me that, though he didn't ...

Hi guys,

I'm writing a book (well, trying anyway) and they say write about what you know, so a lot of the stuff is about mental health problems because it's been my life for the last 3 years (and obviously a lot longer than that too!)

I am fine writing the stuff from my side - I can get some really good descriptions of the irrational thoughts, the rollercoasting emotions etc....but it's all from my ...

Can any of you shed some light on this?

I have previously been diagnosed with AvPD. Since my early twenties (am 27 now) I have had no friends, no significant other. I cut out my family, and don't generally make new connections with people. I am convinced of my awfulness, my sub-human qualities, and I know everyone around me views me in the same light. So -- I avoid. AvPD makes sense.

I have been ...

I can't let go!!

I can't!!! I can't!!! I can't!!! I can't!!! He tried to let me go again today but I got him back, but it was really close.

I feel like I will die without him or kill myself if he ever leaves me.

But I can't seem to behave right with him to make him want to stay.

I don't know what I am gonna do. Each time it gets worse and ...

Of all the times I've been abandoned this one hurts the worst and I didn't even see it coming.

His life seems to be so much better without me. It's always that way. Everyone's lives are always better after I'm gone.

I need someone to tell me how to get through this.

i'm having/been having some issues with my ex. we broke up about 3months ago but we still see eachother almost every day. we spoke a few days ago about our relationship and she told me that shes confused and doesnt know what to do about it. she still loves me and misses us. she told me wen we were tog. she didnt like the person she was becoming, she would act cold sometimes and just ...

I go through what I can only describe as.. phases.. every year. I put this in the Borderline section because a mental health nurse says she thinks what I have may be that.. So here I am.

Anyway yeah what seems to happen is an endless cycle. One day I will feel really really bad. Could be a trigger of something like the fact I once thought I wanted a sex change and I felt ...

This personality/temperament sorter is awesome; the Keirsey and/or Briggs-Myers Temperament Sorter which is based on Carl Jung's work. Most find it disturbingly accurate. I took it 7 years ago, and took it again recently out of curiosity to see if I'd score the same result,.. which I did.

http://typelogic.com/

This is what I always get (INTJ - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging):

http://typelogic.com/intj.html

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