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I really want to believe it gets better. Every social event/interaction for me is complete misery. It's so hard to keep fighting the urge to burst into tears or sneak off into the bathroom and cut myself. I wonder if I'm just hopeless. I just have absolutely no fun being social. I'm too anxious andI have nothing to say because of years of being to shut up. Then as I got older people chastised me ...

I feel utterly disconnected from everyone and everything at this point. At one time I was very close with my family, but now all I feel for them is aversion...I want them to leave me alone. The one person I felt connected to was my ex, and I've detailed that tale in the thread "I Lost the Love of my Life" - Now that he is gone from me I feel completely alone. My sister ...

Im wondering how you guys feeI about being alone??

For me, I have the most intense fear of being alone. Yet despite that, I have vowed to be alone, because everytime Im with someone I end up utterly destroying myself. I have decided that relationships are just too painful for me.


-Sing

My girlfriend got raped when we were dating a couple months ago ... I felt like this pig $#%^ had just stabbed a knife through my heart by doing this to my baby girl.

I had a clip of her getting raped playing over and over in my head for a few days like non stop... I kept on breaking down crying, punching $#%^, and throwing up. She was all that mattered to me and ...

I notice BPD people still tend to do well in things such as jobs and school, it's mainly just personal relationships that suffer. Why is that?

http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc6/188881_202252829794429_100000291405014_702815_152733_s.jpg
The picture is me as an angel protecting my baby sophie bear :')

The only girl I've ever loved, and the worst I've ever hurt.

I hurt her terribly after she got raped and couldn't live with my self, I was up for 3 days on amphetamines and drew this picture right before I popped another lethal dose.

I love her always and forever, but shes better off with out me.

Hi,
Im new here and just wanted to introduce myself.

-Sing

I greatly feared treatment because I wanted to hold onto my BPD...
I rejected medication and therapy for that reason, too.

I never went to DBT or anything, I just dealt with things on my own.
My own fear really stunted my emotional growth when it came to recovery, but nonetheless, I needed to get better, and I knew that. So I learned to control myself.

It's not that I'm living without the BPD, it's ...

Maybe you can't get in to see a DBT counselor right now, but perhaps you can see a regular one?
I have three shrinks. One for meds, one for talk therapy and one I just go see when I can't to the others (she keeps an open schedule). Perhaps you can find someone to just go talk to so that the incident does not go unnoticed?

Your GP could probably recommend someone, or another course ...

Hello. I'm new to the forum.

I've been struggling mentally for just over a year now and I've recently stumbled across BPD. I've been in and out of therapy and not much has helped me.

I clearly suffer from a lack of self esteem, I feel as though I don't have many friendships. I feel awkward around people and most of the time aren't very interested in them. I find I over analyse people and ...