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Nick my lawn mower man came over today to do my lawns. He hadn't been over for a while because he had been off sick with a back injury.
Anyway he asked how things were and how my BPD ex was. I told him we had split up, and after commiserating with me, he went on to comment about how he thought our relationship was very strong, and iron clad, and I said it was ...

Yesterday my BPD ex contacted me again, after 'dumping' me 3 weeks earlier. He sent me a text message, out of the blue, reminding me of a very sensual time we had had together.....anyway I found myself drawn into text sex all that night, which ended in him saying, 'I could get on a plane and be right beside you in bed this time tomorrow' and I said 'You know where I am, just ring ...

like an actor, even in isolation? especially when you have an intense emotional reaction to something...

like the core of this emotion, the deepest, most painful part can't be felt, it's shallow, yet you act out this emotion with tears, put on a show of self-harm (for yourself), drama drama drama, for yourself, not really controlling it yet totally in control at the same time?

let me explain...

i was thinking about the overlap between ...

Since there seems to be a lot of posts about mothers lately....... (and it makes me wonder why there isn't more! lol)........i thought i'd re-post a post i made in the HPD forum.


Today, i did something i haven't done in 10 years. (i'm 30)


I called my mother and told her...................... i love her.


This might of been, the 3rd time i said it.........since i was 16? And that time, was just because i ...

I have every conceivable reason to (same goes for my dad, really); but I'm 32 and she's now 60. There comes a time when parent and child must put the parent-child relationship in the past, and work on forming an adult relationship with said parent. The adult-parent relationship will eventually free you from the previous relationship, and open a new chapter.

Almost always it's the child who has to make the push for this new, ...

Welcome to my world! The world of the NON that keeps getting hoovered back in. I've been with my BPD ex for over 3 years now, and there have probably been about a trillion breakups in the last 3 years.

The last one was over 3 weeks ago, came out of the blue, because I refused to buy him something, and he reacted like a petulant boy and said I obviously didn't love him etc, ...

Does yoour guys BPD get even worse when you are menstruating?

Mine seems too. I am already to emotionally unstable than once a month I get to be "hormonally imbalanced" to boot!

Sucks.

Yesterday I was very period of myself. Some things angered me but I let them go and got over it. I was pleasant to be around and got along with everyone. I had bad thoughts but, once they came, I put an immediate stop to it.

Today, by mid-morning I was panicking like crazy. I think I learned a new trigger of mine. It has to be because it was something sort of bad that ...

Really have reached my limit, have a look at my "help" post to get the idea of what is going on. .. dont have energy to repeat it.

Went down to train station, fully intent on jumping into path of fast train. Police notified, a chase ensued. Spent the night in the psy unit. Now feel brain dead and without a glimmer of hope. Keep punching myself but cant even feel it.

I am never ...

just found this link on schema modes, found it verry interesting.
i literaly had no idea why this was happeneing, and it relates to what has been going on within me for quite some time now.

this stuff is quite deep seated, but i think can be helped over time, with the right encouragement and guidance.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do6owMR1hSY&NR=1

sorry if this has been posted befor. i think my counceler has ...