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COme on peeps, lets fire up our imaginations and have a bit of fun if we can.

I was going over a situation from last night (which I handled pretty well) and the following little metaphor came to mind:

When you put a naked flame into hydrogen, you get a loud pop. With BPD, you are always shocked by the loud noise. You never expect it, even though it's happened every time in the past. ...

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I've been diagnosed with BPD. I'm 23 years old. So far, in every relationship I've been in, it's started out really good and pretty intense... then all of a sudden, I start having major doubts. I get scared I don't really have strong feelings for the peson. I get depressed, feel really unsure of my feelings, and really just feel indifferent. I feel totally numb. Like I'll never be happy. This happens with absolutely every ...

So, I made a post about how great I was doing with Yoga & Buddhism. All's well & good when I have no stressors.

So.. throw in a stressor.

I went to a Yoga class for the first time tonight. (After being alone for 4 months straight, no school, no job, no activities). It was great & really engaging. Problem: I have a crush on the young woman in the class. She reminded me of ...

I was reading a post and it brought up a complaint i've made in the past and have often wondered about. (i'm think out loud here......so bear with me)

I put out special effort to be polite and un-hurtful on here

I too, feel asthough........in relationships, in social interaction of any kind...........i often go through an immense amount of effort, being_____________.

Especially, being nice......being normal (not saying/doing odd things), being kind, being thoughtful/caring.


It rans ...

I am male, in my early 20s and I have BPD. I have had most of the symptoms in the DSM criteria since I was twelve or thirteen and it has been chronic ever since. I saw therapists for a few years, then saw my first psychiatrist when I was fifteen. My original misdiagnosis was Bipolar Disorder and I got nothing but meds for it, which did not help. My illness got worse once I ...

I've only just discovered I could receive private mesages on this forum site. One was about a recent avatar I used. . First off, I'm sorry for any problems this caused others. Not my intent. I use avatars to display my current personality. Always changing. That one came from a I hate the world window (evil puppet skull). I will try to be more careful with my choices. I am sorry.

Im not sure if Im preceiving being neglected or if its really happening. Its causeing me much anxiety and i can feel myself starting to binge eat and start to isolate and manipulate.
Heres the situation. There is a guy that I have been talking to online for a few months. We talk almost everyday but only for a few minutes. I feel unwanted, unimportant, overlooked. We are both very busy and i have pulled ...

Okay...
So...

I'm the BPDer... I admit to being manipulative and awful and blah blah blah.
That's me. I'm everything. I intentionally leave people when I think I'm doing all the things that the Nons come in and ask about to try and avoid being the person Nons come in and ask about. I'm in a state of recovery and attempting to be a good person and control myself, I'm on meds and... right.

So ...

I'm currently in the middle of a crisis. My parents have friends over a few nights a week & they drink. One friend they have over is someone who has been more of a Father to me than my own Father.. We're very close. However, he turns into a jerk when he drinks. My father uses marijuana and always has... I suppose I'm used to it and think nothing of it other than it's bad,he ...