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Okay, so yesterday I went to this academic event where I met my ex-academic advisor. For those of you just tuning in, I am talking about a professor who would no longer work with me after I kind of became clingy, tried to befriend her, wrote her about my suicidal thoughts and such.

So to the event I went, saw her coming in, waved (yes, weird, bit it sort of just happened), she nodded at ...

I thought it would be fun to do this! The other forums had one, so I thought I'd make one for us guys :)

You know you're BPD when.. you're throwing things at the wall one minute, then laughing and smiling the next

I do this all the time :P

I am such a horrible person right now.

I was trying to be a help to someone (a member from here) and made all sorts of promises of friendship and so on.....saying I would always be there for them etc etc......and now my stupid borderhead brain has kicked in and I've thrown it all back in their face and probably made things worse.

It's something I do all the time, I now realise. Does anyone ...

I hate my mother. Nothing changes that. I neither like her, nor love her. Her attempts at getting me to show any real love towards her are futile. I'm her next project, she has those; projects. She wants to 'fix' me like i'm fixable by someone as deluded and flawed as her.

All I want is my distance from her. And no, distance never changes the way I feel about her. It just means I ...

Does anybody have this? My doc says I am causing all of my pain myself. My anxiety/panic goes through the the roof and with it a variety of painful problems. Been to five docs they all say its psychosomatic. Yet every night I have the same problems and they won't go away. It scares the crap out of me and I think I have to go to the ER. Taking wellbutrin, depakote, and Xanax. It's ...

Do you get bored of life? (not suicidal just bored of life at the moment)

What do you do when you are bored?

@ Chaudement :

- Why on the borderline forum? First reflex to fit an important worry.
- In fact the main motivation was to write it to have a self reflexion, which is done, and I could not really write it just for myself in term of motivation! But I don't really need to have that published permanently.

Best greetings.

I've been thinking lately about when I *Fight* with people and the *Timing* I do is very interesting to me.

Like today is Sunday. I know I will see the ex tomorrow and I'm really nervous that it won't go my way and I'll get left.
So right now I'm sort of picking a fight with him.

The thing is I never saw this as " Pushing Away " until I sort of stepped out ...

My therapist tells me that she's just a dog and has an underdeveloped limbic system compared to a human, but I find it very difficult to not anthropomorphize.

My mom had a lot of habits of not being nurturing, going on manic episodes, and just generally being terribly inconsistent and not instilling in me a sense that she was an authority while she was raising me. I look at Lola (my dog), and how I ...

Have any male Nons experienced their female BPDs make false accusations of abuse to your face, as a smear campaign, and/or even make false police reports?