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I'm staying here at my parents house right now and I was suppose to watch their dogs. But than my moms says she has hired someone else to do it!

WTF so now I have some stranger walking in and out of the house. Who is suppose to be BETTER THAN ME?????

I called her and said I can not deal with a stanger coming in and out tell her to ...

I've just had it with this....... All I can do now is sit in bed while I go insane..... I have had it I can't take this any more. Every 30 seconds its anger then tears then anxiety then over and over again. Its all I can do to get through the disasociation in the morning and then I'm so tired that I have to ly down in bed and just watch as I get ...

I haven't been on the forum for a couple months, I mean I never really posted much but I was constantly on it before. Thought I'd write a post about what's been going on lately and what I've learned with the slight chance it may help someone, also for the purpose of sorting out my thoughts in written form.

So last time I wrote I was desperate to go back into hospital. The alternative was ...

I feel so ugly. No-one wants me. I have absolutely no confidence tonight. Zilch. Nothing. I'm just a phoney, a mask. When people get to know me, I repel them. I repel men. I just want to be loved.

:(

Some days I can have so much confidence, but days like this...nothing.

Does anyone else get this?

Hi guys, I basically joined because for as long as I can remember, I have been aware that I don't ever really fit in with any group. I am popular with a lot of people, I appear to have a lot of confidence and am often referred to as the social butterfly, however deep down I don't feel I am confident at all. But at the end of the day I never fit in. I ...

On August 2 I had my partner take me to the ER as I had decided when I awoke that I was going to kill myself. This is the closest I'd come to actualization (vs. ideation) since my first attempt in my early 20's. The psych nurse interviewed me for an hour and deemed me safe to go home (I won't go into all that.)
The next day I was to see my new counsellor ...

One minute were texting, everything is fine I say I'm excited to see the movie today

he says "me too!" "I can't hang out thrusday (we usually hang out that day) how about tuesday? "

I say okay!

Than he says "remember when you saw me at work? " I said no " He says I can't believe you don't remember that" than says " I'm not coming "

I say what? Than I call ...

hey all, wondering if you like music and often try relate to certain songs or feel they do have some close to home feeling. Sometimes clips on youtube show me which songs relate to Borderline and i thought i would make a list and people add songs they know. I always like hearing new songs that hit a deep nerve inside.

I tried - Bone Thugs n Harmony
Animal I've Become - Three Days Grace ...

I just went through one of my "moments" and I got to thinking... why am I STILL fighting with this?

So here I am to ask you all if you've accepted your BPD, your diagnosis, etc. and that sort of thing....

If you haven't can you share what is holding you back?

If you have accepted it, what helped you do that?

For me, I accept it... sort of, I still think it's something that ...

lately, and i am embarrassed and ashamed and guilty and want to stop, when alone on weekends i abuse sleeping pills to pass out and i think coming off them makes me even more chaotic and angry. So on about 5-6 separate occasions i have messaged close (ones i loved) about wanting to die and how i am going to and how nobody visits me and so i am going to die and i become ...