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Have you all ever seen any of of the videos on a channel called "Me And My Black Table"?

They're made by a guy named Bas, and he's a real sweetheart.
When he first started making videos, you can see that he was timid, unsure of himself, and definitely hurting. By the time he got to his most recent videos, he had been well on the road to recovery, and was looking amazing and happy! ...

I'm constantly looking in mirrors to the point where it's a compulsion. I always feel like there's something wrong with my face, like what if my hair is messed up or I have a booger in my nose? I can't even sit next to my boyfriend for an extended period of time without getting up to check the mirror multiple times, which annoys him. Another example of my self conscious behavior is that when I'm ...

Mine are. And they would also try to ruin $#%^ for me too. Like I had lots of friends when I was young and my mom would try and ruin my friendships, right, like say $#%^ about me that's not true, etc, etc. I don't have many friends right now but something is wrong with me - it's not because of my mom interfering.

And whenever she saw me tanning or upgrading my looks she ...

My diagnosis is Bipolar II with borderline features, but a recent event is making me wonder if I am full blown BPD. A friend came to visit, we had misguided sex, he rejected me and I freaked out. I took Ambien with alcohol and started threatening to overdose. I've done this once before and I really hate this behavior. The reason I haven't been diagnosed with BPD is that the behavior only presents itself when ...

I am posting in pink for dramatic effect. Just so you all know. Because I'm not supposed to post in pink anymore. This is a limited-time-only type thread.

So, a friend that I have made on the board here, has directed me to a website, which I BELIEVE, is fueling all the "exes of people with possible BPD" here.

This particular website, (Can I post the name of it? Is that against the rules? Because ...

Any others here?

Every book i have read about it refers to a person with bpd as she and says something about how mostly girls have it.

Great. Thanks. Take my nuts away too, as well as telling me my core, my personality is my problem. I have had issues with my masculinity always. I was raised by a single mother and i can be pretty effeminent anyway. I deal with identity issues, including sexually. ...

I've been thinking alot lately and I notice that every man (exsp my ex) I am attracted to is like my mom.

I want them to be my mom. I want them to take care of me, make me food, drive me places, love me and than hate me, invade boundaries, be there every second of every day, take care of me when I'm sick, suffocate me and treat me as if I am their ...

lonely, angry, sad

I wouldn't hurt my mother, I wouldn't hurt my dad
every time I hurt someone I love it always makes me sad

My wife she is so lovely, shes also really tough
To deal with me, my b p d and all that ######6 stuff

My children are so precious, I hold them in my heart
I wish I could have been wise, been a parent that was smart

My brother is my hero, I ...

Maybe


It's 2 a.m. and i'm not as tired as i was 20 minutes ago. 20 minutes ago i was drained and ready for bed, then i logged on here.

Now i'm drained, but drained of something a bit more precious. Or perhaps, i'm drained of something far less than precious, something toxic. Maybe.


Words and phrases bouncing around in my head after logging on here: "thinks relationships are more intimate than they actually are" ...