News of Borderline Personality Disorder Forum

Well, I guess I still do get feelings of abandonment/rejection over friends though it's not crippling it hurts.

I have some acquaintances who hold a private study group twice a month. I was invited as a guest last month and thought we all got along fine. I told the woman who had me there as her guest that I'd love to come back.

But now I've found out they had a study group this weekend ...

Helo to everyone ...

I hope this doesn't sound strange but in my quest for finding ways to relief all these confusing emotions and get to their causes I have heard about this technique in the Scientology Church Sessions where they measure and relief the intensity of emotions with a technical instrument.

Did anybody try that? If so... could u tell me more about it ?

Does anyone ever feel the strong need to put themselves in a dangerous situation, or they seek it out or dream about it ? like being badly hurt ?

I hate social situations and have been taking a lot of time from work .... but i really need human contact but nobody cares enough i think i have had hugs, love etc i would feel better and some social support offline too.
I know this sounds lame but it is true i feel a huge pain in my heart from being broken and upset for so long and its like everyone knows and can ...

I'm sick of being abused by my mom,

I'm sick of feeling abused and unsafe and creeped out by my dad.

I'm sick of having a brother who doesn't give two shits about my because of my abusive mom

I'm sick of my ex that I wasted a lifetime on

I'm sick of people judging me because I'm not perfect

But most of all I"M SICK OF BLAMING MYSELF!!!

I was not born this way. ...

I'm not looking for any specific answers here, I'm just feeling crappy about myself right now and wouldn't mind a little support. I've mentioned in other posts the difficulty I have with stopping myself from reacting to a situation in the moment. people have given me advice about breathing/calming techniques and i'm really frustrated today with my inability to even be able to take a moment to consider these things in the heat of the ...

Yesterday morning I was not doing well. I had impulses to pick up every knife I saw and was planning my own suicide (It wouldn't be until December) but anyways.

This morning I wake up and am in a better mood, can't wait for the day. Hoping to meet new people.

The difference?

I knew yesterday I was going to be alone all day.
Today my sister and her boyfriend are home and are going ...

I feel absolutely terrible. I was drunk last night, supposed to meet up with someone, not someone special, just someone, and they were working so I couldn't. So I continued to get drunk. Anyway, I did something so awful. I drunk dialled a guy who (stupidly I should have deleted his number ages ago), once had a fling with me. (Let me just say, he pursued me back in the day, we never had sex ...

i hate it when i try message someone to say sorry or try give closure but it ends up being a fight that i blow out of proportion again i hate myself i am an explosive and crazy loser

I just want to say right off the bat this is a long distance relationship of which I have yet to meet this girl, but we are (or at least were) very serious and she only lives one state away. I plan on meeting her very soon, before christmas, but our relationship has become extremely concerning lately. Rather I should say, more so. Anyway, I'll try to keep it as brief as I can, but ...