News of Borderline Personality Disorder Forum

I just posted this as a response to another thread and realized it would be more suitable as a new topic, so...

I'm currently obsessing about a friend (a bit more than a friend) that I met, ironically in this forum. He has BPD and I am bipolar. We are quite a pair. After over a year of talking every day, we finally met. After becoming intimate, fighting, making up, fighting again, sort of making ...

Hi. I'm 29, have been married for 5 years, and am going through a divorce. I keep sabotaging dates. I'm really depressed, and find myself alone. I want to hurt myself. (I'm not going to, I just need to get this out of me.) I want to cut, really badly. I was recently committed at the VA, and I find myself not knowing what is real or what is just distorted, more often these days. ...

Finally, two books I ordered arrived! :)

After reading the google preview, I had to finish 'The Buddah and the borderline'.
Can not wait to sink into bed with this later :)
Also 'The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook' - M. McKay, C. Wood, J. Brantley.
Has anyone worked though this? Or has anybody any feedback from it?

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I have BPD and my outlook on life will rapidly shift, sometimes up to 5 times a day, from hopeless to over confidence and hopeful, back to hopeless, and around again. I am being torn into pieces like this! My physical illnesses aggravate my mental illnesses and vice versa. Sometimes I am unable to care for myself, mainly feed myself and I don't eat and starve myself =/

I wish I could have some stability ...

I guess this sort of stems from my last thread but...

For a long time now I've just distanced myself from people because I don't want to have someone just for them to go away but I guess I can't handle that anymore, I need somebody.

So, the same friend I mentioned in the last thread, at first, I kept telling myself he's my friend but it's not bad if I never talk to him ...

How do you handle rejection? A breakup? When you're pushed away, and you're the one that's the master of pushing people away? And then you get a ridiculous excuse and your perplexed...holding the bag of emotions left to bleed.

Btw, this is not directed against bpd's!!! I'm self dx'd or at least have 4 traits to be 'with BPD traits.'. Just realized this came off as confontational and it's not meant to be.

Just a rant. Feel free to ignore.

At the back of my mind, always, are the negative views I have of myself. No big deal, that's how it is. I have my ways of coping, even if they are somewhat self destructive.

I am now seeing a psychologist, and we are exploring this. All it's doing though is bringing this to the front of my mind. I feel worse than ever.

I find myself thinking ...

Well now even moreso now. I wrote out a big ass thing to explain how i am ###$ but i cant get help. ###$ it i am done. There are no resources for help or people just like to say there are and not give them. I ######6 give up. Im done. But i cant scroll back fown to my spot and it wouldnt paste it when i copied it.

Anyway. If you have a ...

My best friend was stabbed for fifteen minutes with a sword. I was diagnosed with bp and anxiety before this so you can imagine my symptoms are even worse.

But since my girlfriend dumped me two years ago I have had a never ending fantasy of hurting people. People I love. Or the ######6 people I love that left me!

Now the ducks with phds say I have some sort of psychotic problem now.

so ...

Hello, I have BPD. I am very proud of myself b/c I started DBT again tonight. I was in it for several years, did great with it, but then dropped out three years ago b/c I didn't like the group members. Long story.

I have been "in love" with someone, a mentor who is terrific, for a couple of years. Part of my DBT work will be getting over him. I can see it going ...