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I have bpd. My now EX boyfriend has dumped me :(. He said he would never leave me and now he has gone. Dammit I wish I could not have gotten so mad and been so horrible to him. It was becasue I feel so bad about myself I didn't believe he wanted to be with me. I ###$ up bad and now I gotta pay for ...

What the hell. "I love you" they say. And *poof* they are gone. The very next day. Without warning, without goodbye. Not so much as an email. Not so much as a fight. Just gone.

Do i have a hacker following me?- sabotaging my relationships? Have i finally snapped and developed some kind of split personality? What the ###$ is going on?!

Maybe I'm just not likeable. But why the hell say "i love you". ...

If you could be yourself around people
How would they see you in their minds eye?

Hi everyone,

I have been lurking here for a couple of weeks. I recently broke up with a woman I am deeply in love with. I have posted elsewhere on the issues and how I handle things, it was a matter of boundaries, one in particular. It is not necessary to get into details because I don't want to bore.

Up until discovering this forum, I had relied almost exclusively on BPDFamily and another site, ...

hello all

I do Apologize but I need your help again with one of my dilemmas.

* In January, my (separated) husband and I were to sign a separation agreement. He paid to have this drafted up. To me it was a lot of money. But he let the papers laps. Did not make the arrangements to get them signed.

* He also insisted that I leave the garage open so he could get the ...

Hello, I'm new tothis forum and was recently diagnosed with BPD (with impulsive traits, apparently), and depression. I spent a number of years in 12 step fellowships for eating disorders and relationship issues unaware that I have BPD. My mental health deteriorated and my behaviour in these fellowships was inexplicable to me, though it makes more sense now I have a proper diagnosis. Anyway, I recently started attending AA after developing a problem with alcohol, ...

I honestly feel that every single day, I feel worse than the day before. for weeks now. how much lower can I go? I feel like if my life keeps going this way, one day my brain and/or heart are just going to ..... give up. fade away. take me away from everything. like I won't even have to kill myself. I'll just die from too much pain and failure and endless occurrences of everything ...

I asked these same questions on the AsPD forum, but I want to ask the same questions here.

Do you ever feel that your PD is dormant? Perhaps when you are in a relationship and are getting what you want? If so, how long does that typically last?

Females, have you ever manipulated a man to stay with you, or even marry you, by getting pregnant?

In friendships, when you have a falling out, do ...

I feel that my counsellor doesn't understand me. Like we're not on the same page. Every week I sit there trying to convey my problems and how distressing and impairing they have become but I constantly feel like I'm not doing it well. It's difficult trying to explain my behaviour and how I feel (most of the time I don't understand what I'm experiencing myself) and thanks to my dumb visual mind, I use a ...

We had decided to seek out therapy together to work on our friendship. I wrote him a letter today and told him that I do realized I shoved him away too many times. And he was very condenscending about it. Look I know I deserve it, but really? I feel bad enough.

I want the voices gone.

I want to die. Make the voices go away.