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Does anyone else find that they are completely obsessed with self destruction?
My self harm used to simply be a way to cope with difficult feelings, and while that's still part of it, my main focus now seems to be on how thoroughly I can destroy myself.

I've been cutting for 10 years, occasionally taking overdoses for the past 7.5 years (sometimes as a suicide attempt, sometimes just to hurt myself).
During the last 3.5 ...

Hi guys,

I am pretty new to the sight.. this is my third post. I have some questions in my mind that I hope people can help with..

my violent crazy outbursts are triggered usually by my husband. I was just wondering if it is normal for bpd suffers to be sent into a crazy frenzy due to sarcasm and mocking. Also superior attitudes from others. Usually in the middle of an arguement

Is it ...

YOU TRY GET BETTER THINK I CANT LIVE THIS HELL AND REALIZE YOURE MIND IS SPLIT, NOT GOOD ENOUGH SO CONTINUE SELF DETRUCTIVE PATH.

i have been slitting my arms and making them bleed all day.
Purging.
Messaging people wasted.
taking valium and imovane and drinking wine.

called sick for work as a headache when really I'm so depressed i couldn't move my body out of it.

I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE BPD.
NO ...

Hi guys,

need some input on this please?

My husband cannot handle me being normal, lovin wife for a few weeks. Doing normal married things including making love but then an episodes occurs for me. I am violent and aggressive due to an arguement etc.. bit by bit he feels he cannot keep getting close because it spirals down again..

He says that it's getting to him more and more. We'll recover from an 'episode' ...

Hello,
Never been on a forum before as always preferred pen to computer, but lately I have felt the need to get off my chest what's happening. I am a 28 year old happily married woman. Ever since I was a teenager I have had these fixations with people. All of them men, all of them older, all of them married. Every now and then I meet someone who just ignites a little spark inside ...

No matter who writes the thread, I hate reading the ones where someone is trying to find a therapist or psychiatrist. I hate reading them, because I remember what a royal pain in the ass it was to find someone that you can trust and connect with. I would always be thankful I wasn't in their position. I had a therapist that I'd been with for around 7 years.

That ended!!

Around 7 years ago ...

Does anyone else paranoia go out of control ?
Especially is its to do with a guy you love and girls they talk to, or not answer phone or anyone in general or just everyone hating you, laughing at you, judging you or bitching about you behind your back ? You can even hear them say nasty things to later realise that they were speaking about something way off track.

Hi, I'm John, or Fueledbycoffee, or FBC, or whatever you feel like calling me. This is my first post, and I've come on here after a pretty harrowing few days, so forgive me if I sound a bit cracked, or divulge too much information than is socially acceptable. I'm in a bit of a state, and I always seem to talk too much on forums anyway. Something about the anonymity gets me talking. I've been ...

Does anyone have BPD with a chronic physical illness/disability find that their illness/disability makes the fear of abandonment all the more real and worse? Or do you find that your moods/suicidal thoughts directly correlate with whether you are having a good health day or feeling hopeless physically?

lazy, tired, depressed, anxious, heart broken ... do you think our emptiness and loss of motivation and energy to do anything is because our egos are smashed into pieces and alone and one single boost from someone we love or connect with could give us more energy.... or just that attention ?