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Hey everyone!

It's today like always the same. I woke up and looked in my mirror.
I don't know who i am or what i am.
My doctor is a rat and won't help me (because of german health insurance system maybe) and i begin to lose myself more and more.
I tried to be a woman because i feel so since i can think. (also sometime crossdress'ed if i'm alone).
Many congratulations i become ...

Hi,

Just came back from therapy this morning. I didn't realise at the time but my pdoc was subtly asking me things related to BPD for a while. After giving some examples about my behaviour, (like how I can tell people my life story after meeting them for 5minutes) I made some off the cuff remark about maybe having BPD to which my pdoc responded; "I don't think you have BPD, I know you have ...

I was told by my counselor a couple of weeks ago that I have PTSD and was told on Monday that I have BPD. I felt no emotion at all when she told me. I did t really care but when I started reading about BPD I started to have feelings. I don't know what I feel, I just know I feel bad! I don't have any support. I am a stay at home mom ...

hi all;
Do you find that different seasons, or weather make your symptoms worse?

I find that I am having a hard time right now.
We went through a time change.. Added an hour, and sure it is spring.. But spring here consists of:
A blizzard , wind, sunshine, and melting all in one day!

I feel… well fragile.. Like if someone says something mean to me I’m going to cry for a week.
My ...

What do you guys find is your "go to" for strong emotion?

When I was little I was explosive and would fly into a rage at any inconsistency.
I was told over and over that anger and aggression (as I was displaying them) were bad, so I switched from anger to sadness being dominant.
Because of this I flip out when I get angry, because I feel completely out of control. This usually leads to ...

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How can I be a good mother?

I should be a good mother.
To be a good mother, I should have a good boy.
So, my boy should be a good boy.

Often, my mind is somewhere else.
He tells me something, I give him some reply,
but actually, I don't know what he is saying.

He makes a very slight mistake, or he does not hear me.
I feel a huge rage toward him. ...

I know you all must be tired of hearing about breakups (I have read enough forum posts to realize that it happens a lot on here). I was just wondering about your input and maybe some guidance as to what I should do. My girlfriend broke up with at the end of January this year and it blindsided me entirely. We started seeing each other at the end of June, and man-o-man was it a ...

Well, you guys that have been around a long time know how much I like using the PINK FONT... and I try to save it ONLY for special occasions.... AND THIS IS ONE OF THEM!!!!!



Our resident member, a cornerstone of our community, JohnnyBlaze, has been asked to help me moderate the BPD Forum, and he has accepted.

Today is his first day as a Mod, and if you'd like, you can post your well-wishes ...

I have no idea what to do.

I understand that he's lived with pain for years, and I know how hard it's been. He's a lovely man in every regard, except when it comes to my problem. The moment he even suspects a hint of anything wrong with me, he shuts off. He tells me not to talk, he says "you're about to have an episode. I can see it a mile off. I know ...