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Hi soo I'm sitting here at work waited to get my confirmation that I will not be rehired! This waiting $#%^ is driving me crazy! I'm about 95% sure that I will get this email today then I'm going to put in for 2 personal days and leave! tomorrow is the last offical day for me. I will recieve a check tomorrow and on the 20th i will recieve my last one and then unemployment! ...

I had a very confusing experience, and when I talked to my therapist, she said that I dissociated. Apparently, this isn't common in people who have BPD, but it does happen. Has anyone else experienced this?

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Ok so I became involved in a discussion on this subject on another forum and I found it very triggering for me. I know that maybe I shouldn't have gotten involved, but I felt like someone needed to challenge what others were say as no one else was! I'm not going to sit there and allow people to say things along the lines that it's one's own fault if they have bad experiences.

I don't ...

How do you guys cope with the chronic feelings of emotiness? I am getting so so fed up of feeling empty all the time. I feel so so sad and then accompanying that is feeling empty and numb. I can't get used to it i don't like it, it just makes everything feel so much worse. I don't know what to do to make myself feel better.

Impossible question:

Is it possible for someone with BPD and Anxiety to ever become happy and content for a long period of time?

I haven't felt either of these emotions for a long, long time, if ever. Ive gone through periods of having more BPD light in my soul than dark. Ive had "good times" but they are always tainted in some way, which I blow out of proportion.

My natural state is one ...

What do you try to aim your desires towards?

If I wanted to draw or travel or read or sing or socialise with others as much as I wanted my partner, I would be far healthier and no doubt our relationship would be too. The fact is I don't. Not naturally. My natural inclination is to "just want everything to be ok between us" and "do anything" to achieve that. But my natural inclination got ...

i lied to my therapist quite a bit,
nothing TOO serious- like sexual abuse or anything id never lie about that
but when i get into arguments/fights with people and i see my therapist the following day,
i completely demonise them and lie about them, alot alot
i feel awful about it and im seeing him tomorrow
how can i admit to him that i lied?
and is it at all associated with BPD?

Is this exactly the same thing as BPD?

Last night it happened. I completely lost control. From what I can remember, I was throwing myself around the room like a ragdoll at 12:30am.

It came after my partner came in from work and wouldn't talk. I'd done no wrong, we'd been happy the day before and even that morning. I know he's depressive and so I offered my support, and said "or I can leave you in peace if you like. Just let ...

Where should I go to get help?

If you have insurance do you need to go through a primary care doctor? Or you can go straight to a psychiatrist or therapist or someone? It's been years since I last tried getting any help (through the VA) and that was a nightmare. Basically, sure, we'll be glad to help.... just come fill in some forms and we'll be glad to check you out...in 3 months.... *rage*... ...