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I can’t do this, I don’t really understand how close or far I am supposed to be to a person that I care about.

I can never tell if I am too distant or too close.

Also, after getting close to a person I feel so amazing, wonderful. THEN terror strikes me. this person has the power to destroy me and crush my soul. I must run out of fear.

Then I decide to hold ...

Hi all.
I am new to the forum. While I am not currently diagnosed with BPD, psychologists and counselors have told me that I exhibit many BPD traits. I'm too young for an official diagnosis, but I've been told that the possibility of being diagnosed in the future does exist. I personally feel that a lot of the borderline traits I have are due to my being the child of an alcoholic, so I am ...

My boyfriend has BPD. We met at a mutual friends party about 3 yrs ago.
At the time he had a girlfriend but they were not living together.
They lived together at one time but she eventually thew him out of the house
because they couldn't get along.
They had a crazy relationship and both were abusive to each other.
She -
Talked about his problems behind his back to friends.
Tried to get back ...

i am so sick of feeling alone and like nobody cares. today my gfs mom was telling me the probs she has with me and she says i dont hate you but. well all i hear is you $#%^ i wish you were dead well you know what i wanna die then everyone will be happy :cry:

Has anyone ever been with someone manipulative to the point where it feels like they dangle a life preserver out there in front of you... just to pull it away when you get a hold? All for a little attention?

It feels like this girl, and the 2 previous girls I've been with, get involved with me and the honeymoon period is the best. I feel on top of the world. They, I assume feel ...

Hi everyone, i have been lurking these forums for a little while now, and decided to make a short post.

I have some pretty heavy BPD symptoms, although I have symptoms from everything under the sun including ADHD, Bipolar, PTSD etc... I'm one of the quiet and shy borderlines, but my relationships, intimate or platonic, are nothing short of chaotic. I don't really have friends anymore.

Anyway, I wanted to know about peoples' activity level, ...

Hey guys,
So I just saw my therapist after a week vacation and it was AWESOME. I have never felt so validated...cared for...I don't know. happy? after leaving a session.

Something we're talking about is learning who I am. She put it like this. I learn how I feel in certain situations, and leave it to that situation. Put it in a container, so to speak, and leave it there. Eventually, we're going to have ...

Just wondering is there anything that helps to stop you feeling like crap every time someone suggests leaving you! I'm on meds and those don't work and in therapy but nothing seems to stop the feeling. I know it's something most of us with BPD have problems with but has anyone found anything which helps!! I try my best to avoid relationships to stop it from happening but can't seem to avoid it.

It can be the smallest change - for instance this evening I had arranged with my partner to meet him straight after work at his mothers house. His mother lives in the same city that I work, so I was going to get the bus straight from work and meet him there, expecting him to be there - because why would he arrange to meet me there if he weren't going to be there? Anyway ...

I'm just wondering if anyone else experiences this..

Sometimes the world "feels" different, it feels as though I see everything around me differently. My house feels different, it feels strange, like I'm not a part of it. Not a part of the world in a way, it looks completely different to me. It's a feeling I get. I'm not sure if it's to do with dissociation or just attachment issues to my surroundings, I feel ...