News of Borderline Personality Disorder Forum

I've just been writing a lovely long message and then somehow 'lost' it from the screen and went back to a blank box! Soooooooo annoying! This has happened a few times now.

Does this happen to anyone else?

Unfortunately there's not a "BPD shaming because a non's partner won't get help" thread. There's also a reason for that. Most of us are painfully aware of what we cause and have little control over it.

Atomicuniverse kindly redirecting me to start a thread. I will use his words as they are more succinct than I had in mind, and because there was something there I missed.

The following are mine:
As a pwBPD, ...

Hi. I'm new here (therefor I apologize if I'm posting this at the wrong place).

I've been 'over emotional' for as long as I can remember. When I was around fourteen, that was when it started being extremely crazy, I bet hormones were also in on the game. Especially when it came to abandonment and being a lone. And anger. But I took most of it out through sports, and I was good on the ...

i am falling back into old habits of self harm, depression, anxiety, wanting to stab others, wanting to set stuff on fire, im not sleeping and my mind is in overdrive, violent thoughts

sometimes i think im better off locked up for life in a psych unit it would be more safe for others when im like this

over the past 6 weeks i have slowly gone backwards, i have falling into a chaotic world ...

Okay may be weird to some but has anyone used crystals such as tourmaline, kunzite or kyanite etc to help with certain aspects of energy healing ?

Some are lithium minerals too or crystals which is good for grounding amongst other things.

I got a message on my phone today from the receptionist at my mental health center. She stated that my pdoc got a new position and would no longer be seeing me. They also cancelled my next appointment until they get someone new. I'm quite upset about this. It definitely triggered loss and abandonment for me. I had such a good connection to her(my pdoc was female). She would always spend extra time with me ...

asdf;lkj I'm feeling really anxious right now because I'm waiting for my therapist to call me back.
I had a problem at work and instead of waiting for our next session, I called her while at work and left a voice mail asking for her to call back. I wouldn't have done so if I could wait, but the issue at work directly affects me tomorrow and Sunday, so I needed advice on it.
It's ...

My mother has been battling cancer for close to 3 years now. It's gotten worse the last few weeks and today I found out she has been given mere months, a couple in fact, to continue on. I'm not looking for well wishes. My mom is a beautiful, strong and very independent woman. I love her with all of my heart. Her faith, while not one that I share, leads her to believe that angels ...

I would really like my account/ posts deleted. I have messaged 2 moderators and have received no reply. I really want my account deleted! Please!

So, I had a really bad day/week and went into my therapy office as a walk-in and I ended up having to talk to a crisis team. I'm apparently at a high risk for suicide and I had to beg and plead to get them to not send me to a hospital. I'm currently undiagnosed but the word BPD comes up enough in my file that people are extra concerned that I'm gonna kill myself. ...