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I have been relatively stable for at least 6 years now, after a complete destruction of everything in my life back in 2016. For reference, I’ve got BPD, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, OCD, BDD (body dysmorphia disorder), eating disorders in my late teens/early 20s, and I’m an INFJ.

I can’t remember being this angry since I had that psychotic breakdown back in 2016. I forgot I even had this kind of anger. It’s a ...

My mother has BPD, my doctor has started to suspect I may have it. They dx'd me bipolar due to a cocaine abstinence crisis at 30. Up until then I hadn't been undiagnosed with anything, but taking meds and "meds" since I tried to kill myself at 16. This was the first time I had to show my "real mother I created inside me as a part of myself that can defend me". Apparently the ...

Hi, this is my first post, so i apologize if i make any mistakes!!

SO, it started last year when I gotten a therapist due to me becoming more suicidal. This therapist during our first appointment reviewed things with me, then I believe.. screened me for BPD? I believe I'm suffering from symptoms, but was never fully confirmed on a DX. They had said I was probably suffering from it/may have symptoms.
During this time ...

we were having discussion on kids n how some families dont want kids
i said: even i'm not fond of kids as i dont want responsibility
my senior says: that means ur immature

i just want to punch him across the face for saying this.

Her entire life, she had been a stranger to her family—a niece neglected, forgotten, and left to navigate the tumultuous waters of her existence alone. The bonds that most children take for granted—the warmth of an aunt’s embrace, the comfort of knowing that extended family is just a phone call away—were luxuries she never knew. No one called, no one wrote, no one visited. She grew up in an unpredictable, unstable home, where her father’s ...

I have had a past of struggling with retaining a job over the years. There are some jobs that I've quit in one month. But the current job I'm at I have managed to hold on for one year and 3 months (laughing to myself right now, because that is how low the bar is). I love the work I do, because I get to help out rescued animals, and my boss has shared with ...

I am so hurt.
had my brother's wedding last week. we dont have a close bond and dont talk much.

at wedding, i had fallen and was walking with a limp.
when i was helping move chairs for some relative, my brother's father-in-law tells me: oh where will you go limping around.. i'll tell someone else.

i got so hurt. how can you tell anyone: 'limping around'!!!

i'm not ur friend for u to use ...

Saw an article in some scientific journal on ketamine for BPD, seemed promising. Think it was from Europe (Germany or Switzerland). Nasal ketamine spray for person with severe BPD, seemed to improve everything -- depression, anger outbursts, etc.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9156400/

On the other hand, I thought I read an article suggesting BPD makes people a bit more disassociated already, so that made me think a dissociative like ketamine could exacerbate ...

nothing makes sense. i can never decide. takes me weeks to decide something on amazon to buy. n then once i have it. takes me weeks to decide if i want to keep it or return it.
n this is for something like vests or t-shirts

have a pathetic career where i can barely function. i'm 33. a loser. no confidence at work where i'm barely managing before they fire me.

doing entry-level job.

still ...

I've just come across two words, or phrases, that pretty much sum me up: Maladaptive Daydreaming and Hikikomori. I don't know if there's any kind of link between these two things or if it's just me.

I do know that I've spent most of my life daydreaming. When reality bothers me, I tune it out and go to my room and just immerse myself in fantasy. When I don't want to be me, I just ...