By nature I'm a very mild mannered and polite person, but I just have this uncontrollable rage and I don't know how to express it. I've even vandalised when I've really gotten out of control which made me feel terrible as I think it's a very low, scumbag-like behaviour, but I can't control my anger. I know why I'm angry, I haven't got a life or friends, I live in a constant state of pain ...