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Holiday time i can't stand. mostly all of them: christmas, easter, thanksgiving, 4th of july. the only one i really like is halloween. frankly there's too much pressure to be a certain way on holidays; cheerful and festive. but i am not like that. really i just want to be left alone to be alone but pressures and guilt trips from family members make me feel like i have to participate in these events. just ...

the changing North
in every second
with every blink
drowns me
in its dark waters
in its sadistic undertow

i bury my feet
in wet soft sand
drained between my toes

amongst useless kicks and strokes
i beg for clemency
to the laughing Trident of my despair
which beats
time after time
the bottom of my life

that who holds it
keeps the rhythm of his chant
mischievously
cruelly
-bard of my trepidations-

noises confuse ...

Neptunus et Saturnus,
Alea Iâci Sed Non Vobis

Will keep on forcing your sturgeons,
dark, malicious, yellow-eyed ones
tying my hands and my options.

Will keep on fighting you
and will destroy your Trident
from my torn and rotten
bowels and brains
by its intoxicating apexes.

You cannot drown me more than this.
I laugh crying at your moving sands
which swallow me and
make my eyes burn.

I laugh crying at your monstrous face, ...

I've read in a few places that people with BPD have a hard time with school and college for various reasons. I didn't do well in grade school because I always felt like most of it was a waste of time, but I had several years between grade school and college. By the time I got to college, I was so ready to be learning new things in groups with other people. I did really ...

Air
Water
Fire
Earth
Semen
Grass
Rain
Sand
Sun
Skin
Lemon
Breeze
Scent
Soft
Raft
Sky
Stars
Tent
Words
Rum
Anise
Guitar
Voice
Cigarettes
Kisses
Song
Hair
Fingers
Eyes
Sleeplessness
Dream
Laughter
Flirting
Moon
Zoom
Gypsy
Fury
Blood
Hot
Heat
He mine
She mine
Tongue
Sex
Arch
Arm
Shoulder
Fusion
Weeping
Beat
Gallop
Flight
Breath
Lips
Galeano

Martín...

So blessed you be,
monstrous Poseidon
built of storms
fuzziness
echoes

that who does not turn into stone
after making love to Medusa

and Medusa wonders

wonders when she will be pregnant with Pegasus
wonders when her snakes will shield the hero
wonders why her eyes were cursed
wonders if she is a necessary evil
wonders why her blood burns inside of her
wonders why her solitude
wonders why she can only exist on reflection ...

from deep to shallow structure (semiotic being or living being?)

a flower
a hand
a bottle of milk
hugging
kissing

all that,
a small girl

Arabic father
Venezuelan mother
country
- country no more,
poor thing –
grandparents
sisters
a book to start
and many to follow
years
a goodbye

all that,
roots

coffee
Brazil
the winter
work
new codes
an animal named Frida
work of art
work of love
work of life
a man ...

I don't know about the rest of you, but I have a tendency to get bored very easily and so, occasionally I'll take an online test or two just for the hell of it. I've already been diagnosed with AsPD, but for something to do I self tested for psychopathy using the PCL-R as a guide. A self test obviously means the results are invalid, but I thought it would be interesting to see what ...

OK so I tried to stay away from relationships all my life but this girl started talking to me a lot, she has been bullied by lots of kids and she was raped when she was 12 years old... We probably sent like 15k txts as friends if she was had a bully i would take care of the problem (im 2 years older) I loved it so much that she needed me to protect ...

Well I assume you all know how we BPD suffers typically struggle with work, school, sticking to plans etc. And I've found myself in a very tricky situation at my work. I'm 19 and doing year 12 again after dropping out half way through, and I decided to get a part time job.
I'm working as a waitress at a pub and its my first hospitality job. I've been working there about 3 weeks now ...