I think before we do another thing I would like us to create a baby together!!!
an imaginary baby!!
And as usual.......
I HAVE A PLAN! LOL!!!
And I want this baby to be a little bit of both of us......
Cause you are in my middle now and I am on both sides of you.
I will give him everything I know ......all the good stuff and all the references I have to good and bad.......
And I want you to give him everything you know. Because I don't know that stuff.
Here is MY plan. I want to give this baby:
joy
power
hope
pleasure
and you
Only I don't want to raise him.
I want you to.
I want you to raise him. Because I trust you.
You are always good to me.......because I always see people as good. I can't see them as bad.
This is one of my limitations remember? I limit myself all the time. But you....you can give him so much more. Your way of thinking is better then mine. I don't KNOW this for myself .....because I am limited by me. But.........you're good in my eyes and so I just have to BELIEVE in you and TRUST you to give this baby all this stuff that I can't due to my limits.
I am still going to give him the things in my plan. Cause I need plans. Thats just me.
I need you to know....that I REALLY want this baby.
I am thinking.........this baby would make me really happy cause he would have everything I can give him and everything I can't give him.....which is the stuff I know you CAN give him.
I just don't want to be responsible for his care and upkeep.
I want to create him. Cause I am a creator....thats what I like doing! I am doing it now....I just conjured him up out of NOTHING!!!! LOL!!
I am so happy!!!! I am serious.......how can you not be happy that we have a baby here!!!!????
( and I think you are wrong about me being terrified of nothing. I am a creator. I make SOMETHING out of nothing all the time. I have no fears with respect to nothing.....I can always create something out of nothing....as much nothing as you can throw at me.....I can create all day long )
So I am providing a plan.......and I create. The ability to create is limitless. What I don't have here....at this moment.......is your decision.
I am giving you a choice......to create or not to create this imaginary baby.......and for you to bring him however far or not far you want to bring him!!!!!
The skys the limit or not limit because from this point on I give him to you.
Like I said I don't want to be responsible for that.
So I don't really care what you do or how you do it.
I just want you to do what you do and do it with him!!!
I will be here. He can have my influence. I just won't interfere in your responsibility.
I trust you with him cause I want to. Its my choice and I have faith in you.
I understand here....that this may be a surprise. ( but you know sometimes babies are unexpected anyways.....)
I understand you basically just found yourself in this situation which you didn't really choose. The baby is just here now. I mean you had no choice in my creating him. I just did it on my own.
And I know the baby had no choice to be created. But its what I really want.
I want to have a relationship with this baby.......
I want him to know me.
I guess he would have to know me on some level because I created him.....
In doing that, I already put a little bit of me in him!
So I understand your surprise but......
I couldn't help it I just had to have it.