I am a self-aware covert narc who has made minimal progress in improving myself over the last 10 years. The problem is that I only want to deal with my disordered personality when I'm going through crisis.
My latest crisis is that I took Jordan Peterson's 5 domain personality test, and the results really concern me (even though there's nothing there that is a surprise).
I am extremely high in neuroticism, very low in consciencetiousness, middle in openness and extraversion, and low in agreeableness. I literally have the worst personality profile possible in terms of being horrible, unhappy, predisposed to all kinds of mental health and physical problems, and I just kinda feel like giving up. Is there any help for someone like me to actually improve themselves and live a somewhat bearable life?