Where do you see yourself in the future?

What would you have that you don't? Be it in terms of material possessions, careers, relationships or self-improvement.

I had typed a reply to people in the Persona thread and was about to post it when it got locked. Just in case anyone feels scorn...

I accidentally "switched to abandoned child mode" so my final reply in it was half removed and the thread was locked, but I'll stop there so this one doesn't get locked too.

If it does, I'm sure it will be fine to recreate this topic as long as I stay quiet that time.

The only thing I know of is that I want to further my education.

Buy more property so that I don't have to work any more and buy more land.

Would you be bored / understimulated if you stopped working?

I don’t know, this is currently my biggest issue. I don’t know what I want out of life. I guess that would be what I want then. Something to pursue, be passionate about something to enjoy. Anything will work

I guess if it were likened to a narcissistic event that people here can relate too I’d say that the things my former’false self’ or whatever cared about and pursued I can now see how empty and absolutely meaningless they really are and that I’ve been pursuing the wrong things, things that will never bring me an once of happiness or satisfaction in the end.

I’m building a house in another state mainly because I can because of the interest rates and access to more of my funds due to covid, it will never be a better time but I’m not particularly excited about it, seems more like a chore to move and relocate everything. I don’t want to go on a negative tangent I'm not trying to be boring so I’ll leave it at that

DaturaInnoxia wrote:Would you be bored / understimulated if you stopped working?

There's plenty I want to do.

Well, that's good then. I hope it happens quickly for you.

ViniStonemoss wrote:What would you have that you don't? Be it in terms of material possessions, careers, relationships or self-improvement.

I also want to be back in my old city in a place with a playroom for my snakes and a patio that I can sit outside privately and have a couple planters on.
As for material possessions, the only thing I can think of at the moment is to still have my (or a) car.

Recently, I realized I'm no longer capable of relationships.
A little while back, I started talking to someone very nice and as soon as I felt like I was getting mentally/emotionally close and vulnerable with them, I started having panic attack after panic attack after panic attack after panic attack. I stopped sleeping, dissociated worst than normal.
It was so bad, I stopped talking to them because I wanted the $#%^ I was going through to end.

I think I'd be better at being a therapist than doing support work type stuff.
It ######6 blows though because to be able to counsel as a social worker, you don't need more than a bachelor's to get work, but places won't hire anyone psychology based unless they have a Masters or PhD or PsyD.
Even then, there's very few jobs for them.
Social workers are too busy being feminists, etc. that they don't focus enough on research or how the mind operates, biology or interpersonal dynamics or any of that.
Also, I find feminism, sjws, and social work extremely triggering (probably one of the most enraging things in my life)

If I got a proper education, I thought it would be cool to do research and put together a coping and effectiveness skills kind of thing for people who are institutionalized due to being in the prison system (and want to stay out), etc.

As for self-improvement, I'd like to work on my emotional intelligence among other issues I've recently discussed around here, I want to be able to ground myself/practice mindfulness, do more things based in nature and be able to sit quietly and peaceful when I want to. I'd like to be willing to meditate again too.

Also, I want cigarettes to be completely harmless and extremely cheap, so I can start smoking again

i see myself managing a group of people from my condo in the city.

my cat will have been with me from rags to riches.

bang-maid aside a beautiful brunette wife.