what are u like as a drinking drugging degenerate?

hunch that npd are even more narcy when under the influence? more sensative? quicker to lash out? more self serving?

for me, which everything is for, i get the 0-100 phenominom

im largely chill on all substance (yes including meth coke opioids benzos RCs alcohol weed psychedelics and performance enhancing drugs) but if someone fuks my vibe im like.. dude.. politely dont do that. but often i dont even command them to stop amd just start going off the handle.

i mean its all situational so maybe if yall give me some real life situations itll help

mine are irrelevant because im not a diagnose but ill share w u if u put ur finger in my butt

thx in advance to all participate and mods for understanding this topics dope

saucygirl31 wrote:]
mine are irrelevant because im not a diagnose but ill share w u if u put ur finger in my butt

thx in advance to all participate and mods for understanding this topics dope

im gunna kms

Alcohol is a roll of the dice. I can be extremely funny and extroverted or violent and unpredictable; it depends on the circumstances.

Weed just chills me out. Coke I can't use, as I just become uncontrollable, and with acid I need to be tied to a chair. Speed is ok, as long as I have a lot of stuff to do.

I smoke a lot of weed.

Alcohol is varied to types.

In general, I get very happy and bubbly. Friendly. If I straight continue to black out drunkenness, there is this line where I cross and I get super sad and cry. I think its tiredness. Or hunger. Well, I can't drink now anyways so thats over. But if I sober up with coke, or mix with X, it doesn't go into that landslide.

On both coke, X and speed I am super talkative and bubbly.

Weed - is a no. I get really bad anxiety. Honestly hate the stuff and people on it are just stoopid. This whole thing about it being awesome is ridiculous. If you have any sort of anxiety, it tends to worsen it and naturally makes you more depressed. 0/5. I used to enjoy it when I was younger but it's never been the same.

Acid is a coin toss. I can get bad anxiety. But I have had some good trips where I went around skipping and making "for tonight" friends, being bubbly etc. I had a time where I really connected with a Bonsai tree.

Shrooms are such a hit and miss. Hardly ever get visuals with them and the one time I was convinced half my brain had shut off. Or I was dying. And all my friends were running around screaming like chickens.

So, I would say I stick to the things that make me bubbly and extroverted and stay away from the things that make me want to be in a straitjacket.

I also stay away from jagermeister (although drunk me tends to sneakily order it) and tequila because its just gross. Whiskey, neat on rocks or Vodka with water is generally what I used to enjoy.

Being an H addict. All I can say is I ended up listening to a lot of music, lost track of time, wrote a lot of #######4 and was unable to go to the toilet or orgasm.

Ironically, the only pills I am allowed to take now contain opiates. But I only take it when I am in serious pain to the point of screaming.

I've been always extremely sensitive to different types of weed - much to the annoyance of most of my dealers, because I was eyeing a special kidn of effect that only about 40-50 percent of the stuff could produce. So when I was still smoking that was mostly a sort of warm, floaty body-high with an amplification of visualisation capacity / the internal world. It also amplified my paranoia though. Since my paranoia has vanished in the course of therapy I dunno if that would still happen nowadays, I havent smoked in over 5 years now.
Alcohol I use very rarely as I find the dissociative effect of it very boring. Its more like an amplifiaction of that numbness I am in all the time anyways. There is a change on top of that pure dissociation when I drink a few cocktails but I couldnt really describe it to a satisfying degree. It amplifies somethign but Im not sure what.

On the weed, I used to get bad anxiety/paranoia also that why I never got extremely into it and it also hit me very hard as most drugs do but some of the newer lab grown stuff I’ve tried is completely different. They've essentially bred out those bad qualities and they have weed now that will actually help with anxiety as opposed to making it worse.

With a lot of weed, it's not so much about the strain as it is about when it's harvested. A later harvest tends to produce more calming effects, as the CBD levels are higher.

i smoke my platinum girl scout cookies way too much. weed makes me so docile. if i had to pick one that evens me out id pick weed but again the 0-100 phenominom is still there

im surprised drugs have such different effects. but not really just a little

Alcohol: I'm usually a fairly friendly and gregarious drunk though can be quite destructive in a manic and good natured sort of way. Very occasionally I can be brooding and cranky. In either event I'm less harsh than I am sober. I should also mention that the men in my family tend to have bad reactions to beer and get quite violent. Consequently we're all big spirit drinkers. My uncle Hans can tuck away a couple of large bottles of cognac and still hold a cheery and polite conversation with his in laws but after a few pints he's apoplectic with rage and trying to hit people with the furnishings. In all honesty I've never really got drunk on a lot of beer so I've no idea what effect that has. I'm usually a fan of scotch, Brandy and liqueurs. Also cocktails, the more offensively effeminate the better.

Weed: Probably the best for me as it dampens down the background hum of aggression which I experience most of the time and makes me less sharp. It comes with a serious downside in the form of the reduction in physiological sensation, a bit like having your senses wrapped in cotton wool. Sex on weed for example, is a waste of everyone's time and energy. I smoked a lot during my late teens early twenties and only ever got a mildly euphoric floaty sensation, no paranoia.

Coke: I usually avoid it as it's a bit of a weird one for me, generally it just makes me feel sharper. I'm pretty certain I could successfully operate under its influence. The downside is that it removes the brakes, so that the mile wide streak of sadism that runs through my personality and is normally nailed well down gets to run around naked in the rain making rude gestures at passers by. I'm can be gleefully cruel on coke and will take any opportunity to get nasty.

Opiates: Not recreational but I've had tramadol, morphine, fentanyl and diamorphine in fairly high doses. They just make me spaced out. I was given an overdose a couple of times which had me visually hallucinating before passing out, no delusions though, I knew full well I was seeing things.

Drugs alway strike me as fundamentally social things, or for a specific type of socialising which involves clubs, house parties and the like. Chucking myself down the side of a mountain, round a track,out of a plane or just generally roaming around the back of beyond is more how I like to get my jollies. With a few exceptions it's cheaper and healthier.

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