Bombardment of awareness (Alan Watts)

Esmoke wrote:There are always those cases where there is no obvious signs of trauma and a personality disorder is still present. I’ve read about it having a lot to do with early attachment issues and genetics also. I think most were treated like $#%^ and became sorta dysfunctional humans in return.

Yeah, parental issues causing distorted development with a child. I agree that's important.

justonemoreperson wrote:When you look at home brain waves change during the different stages of sleep, it gives a glimpse into how consciousness is produced. During deep sleep, we effectively die, and our consciousness disappears, leaving only our mechanical body active.

Some times ago I listened on YouTube a music that was associated to multiple cerebral waves; they were gradually changed so that your brain was slowly driven to the state of the deep sleep.
I was able to stay awake. When “deep sleep” arrived, I was in a very deep trance,
so peaceful and pleasant that I was sorry when the voice said we were going to leave it.
I enjoy life, but I recalled living as something painful, happened in a far and superficial zone. I hadn't a painful life, but I became aware of the constant, little effort we are doing to do everything, even to exist. I wasn't aware of that before, and it was perceived as painful compared to the other state, that was totally relaxed.