Isolation

https://youtu.be/jmStKhO5dAM

yeh but don't get me wrong i am an introvert, i recharge alone, i just don't really let people get to me. i used to work customer service in high school and college and im really good at engaging people and putting up w #######4 i just prefer to be alone all said and done. esp as i got older. in high school er body love me because i tried. i knew I'd be stuck w these goons for 4 years. now at 28 i couldnt care less.

oh d im sure you're capable.

I've always slightly preferred my own company to the company of others. When I'm alone I don't have to spend energy hiding all my ###$ up opinions and pretending I'm normal. On the flipside I really miss the frisson of meeting new people and the interaction that follows. It feels good when you see you're making a good impression.

saucygirl31 wrote:

poxalis wrote:it's easier that way because then i can completely ignore when they say things i don't like. plus i get time to filter myself and think through responses or etc.

are u awkward irl?

No.

Interesting that you are introverted, I would have never guessed.
You are definitely good at engaging people.

I can't imagine you being able to put up with #######4.
How did you manage?

So people say 'the Google' isn't listening or watching you
- and that when relevant ads come up, it's purely coincidental, then please explain why this came up only hours after the aforementioned discussion?

Is this the kind of thing that comes up regularly and I've just somehow never noticed?

rofl google is deep inside of you.

how do i manage #######4? i just don't react i compartmentalized it. its hard to get $#%^ out of me my parents said its like pulling teeth. and its always about the other person. as much as i am narcissistic not in the clinical sense, i just assume ppl are stupid or in a bad mood.

I believe it that you could close everything off if you want to.
For me, doing that is unconconsious rather than a choice.

I can't hide my facial expressions.
I'd like to learn to be able to assume people are just in a bad mood and not have to fight the urge to 'put them in their place' for taking it out on me.

This took me like 10 minutes to write because I've slept 4 hours in 2 days.

poxalis wrote:i prefer isolation. i can get what i need from people through the internet. it's easier that way because then i can completely ignore when they say things i don't like. plus i get time to filter myself and think through responses or etc.

Please don’t take this the wrong way as I come in peace, but are you sure? Are you sure that is not your disorder talking? Humans as a species are social creatures, maybe our disorders make us believe differently at times but is it true or is a distortion? If I’m overstepping my place please just punch me in the face to let me know sometimes I can’t tell.

^Agreed.

People do this all the time: justify why their restricted way of life suits them better. I have a friend who's afraid of flying, and so will spend time justifying why you don't need to leave the UK to see the world.

When my neighbour sees me working on my motorbike, he spends half the time explaining all the reasons he can't have one, when in reality he's just too scared.

Life is like standing in a huge room with a thousand doors. All the doors are unlocked, but we lock the ones that make us nervous. Some people prefer being confined to one room than face their fears, even if those fears are unreasonable and vague.

I've barely been outside since 26th of March except to go on my bike but I don't call that going out as bike riding is like outside isolation.

I will be going to my works on Wednesday though. Only because I had a massive argument with my line manager via instant messaging the other day so I have to meet with hr and the big boss. Fun times, not.

I did a 2 year stint of absolute isolation when I was a teenager, I wouldn't say it was fun but I didn't develop any serious psychiatric issues or anything.

I spent 18 months at the end of my time in chemistry pretty much on my own, save for interactions with colleagues and random strangers and similar. This is was primarily to do the the excessive workload and pressure I was under at that time and I had gradually cut contact with anything which was distracting me from being able to get the job done. it was a failed strategy in the end because I really need other people to decompress.

It's not being able to get outside in the fresh air that does the most damage to my mental health in the long term. I was a very outdoor kid and am not much different as an adult. I am sociable in my own way but don't have much time for the clubs, bars, house parties sort of crowd. Or as I like to think of them the pretentious urbanite skid mark on humanity's collective underwear. I get on better with social groups of a more active bent. Socialising on the internet doesn't really do anything to fill a need for human contact.

justonemoreperson wrote:When my neighbour sees me working on my motorbike, he spends half the time explaining all the reasons he can't have one, when in reality he's just too scared.

Could it be more to do with the fact he'd like one but can't offord it/wife won't let him have it? Alternatively maybe he's looking for you to make a counter argument, bikes are not the most accessible hobby out there.