case study: cured narcissist

I can be very charming, I can make almost anyone like me.... Then I don’t like how close they are getting to me, so I push them away, this drives them nuts and they don’t understand what’s happening and perhaps I don’t either.

It’s happening right now with someone I’ve known my whole life, right. Ow she disgusts me and I can’t stand to be around her but I know she would do anything I say. Broken

Esmoke wrote:I can be very charming, I can make almost anyone like me.... Then I don’t like how close they are getting to me, so I push them away, this drives them nuts and they don’t understand what’s happening and perhaps I don’t either.

It’s happening right now with someone I’ve known my whole life, right. Ow she disgusts me and I can’t stand to be around her but I know she would do anything I say. Broken

This spoken as a psychopath, or In another context?

AProphet wrote:This spoken as a psychopath, or In another context?

I honestly wouldn’t know, it’s just my relationship pattern and I can see it unfolding but cannot seem to stop it. This particular person is disordered in their own right I’m fairly convinced of that. I’m doing everything I can to make her leave me alone and she just seems to want me even more. It’s really strange.

Esmoke wrote:

AProphet wrote:This spoken as a psychopath, or In another context?

I honestly wouldn’t know, it’s just my relationship pattern and I can see it unfolding but cannot seem to stop it. This particular person is disordered in their own right I’m fairly convinced of that. I’m doing everything I can to make her leave me alone and she just seems to want me even more. It’s really strange.

Maybe shes in love? Means she has to do anything to be with you, else it will realy hurt. Even if you are abusing her. Thats how the feeling works. Have you ever been in love? Whats your position on empathy?

Continuing the thought process... we found that the narcissist is not self-aware (that he exists and his actions have consequences), and we were wonding, whethever the psychopath posseses that trait. He/she might not, might be purely animalistic and driven by the instinct to dominate.
The one colleague I identified as a psychopath seems to be the latter. He uses psychological projection (f.e calling me "a psycho"), probably on an unconscious level, against his targets, blames them for his abuse.

For further examples of what thats like, I would point to the first page of this thread: narcissistic-personality/topic214673.html
The first post was made immediately after a psychotic episode, and you can see that it was chaotic. Also clouded by anger of not being able to change or improve, frustration. And also from the perspective of what I believe was my false self, especially this post is revealing:

AProphet wrote:correction. my true self was allready dead when hyperspace even 2 happened [...]
but it did break threw and I observed my inner mind I think fixing, reintegrating my lacking capacities, remnants of the true self. Dissociative processes preventing self reflection, empathy, and visions of the future.

I just had a dream (more than a dream, a vision when entering sleep, not asleep yet) of me stiffled by hate, with the words "who was the baby before?". Im still working it out what It means.

It was "dead", but notice the wording (bald part), makes a whole lot of sence take from the false-selves perspective. "remnants of the true self", dissociative processes get reintegrated into the personality structure, and you should know those are characteristic of the narcissistic personality.

Im still working out what it means. ha-ha. WHAT CAN IT MEAN? That the false self is back in control and its rubbing it in my face. But your not able to understand the hypnagogic hallucination becouse of the dissociative processes.

I didnt break threw on the dmt but the divination was extremely powerfull. Including how O. cut me off after she heard what she wanted to hear (and I knew she wants that, told her on purpose so we can be "friends"), the replaced frame draem-picture That she will be In love with me, and this will be interesting for you guys, I wrote the psychotic epsidode immediately following the hyperspace event; this is how I understood how the dissociative processes work:

"...you didnt understand (O.) that your best friend hates me for breaking her heart. [...]

I must keep track of dated categories. O. Is a narcissist, so I dont know when both girls hate me, or I she hated one and I hated the other [...] and why there is always a feint presence of prior significance, which contains the same correct and not allowed wording: for breaking her heart.

But there was more: O. couldnt hate, she had no feelings. The better the concealment freedoms of the trait, the surer they feel in this deception."

I mean it says it all - hyperintelligent abuser in your head. I'll try to unravel this for your guys, it will be another long post.

I don’t feel like I’m abusing her at all, I feel like she is getting too clingy and intruding on my personal time. This is making me very angry but I know that’s not right so I’m avoiding the entire thing right now. She just is starting to freak out alittle bit I’m starting to suspect a borderline type tantrum. I’ve told her several times I’m not interested in a relationship with anyone really and it’s nothing to do with her and that’s true. She just doesn’t seem to accept this and I don’t know how to deal with this without getting pissed off and lashing out at her. I have a history and I don’t want to hurt her but she is pushing too hard and I don’t like it.

I don’t want to hijack your thread so I won’t go on and on about it but I will have to read through this thread more so I can understand your situation alittle better.

Esmoke wrote:I can be very charming, I can make almost anyone like me.... Then I don’t like how close they are getting to me, so I push them away, this drives them nuts and they don’t understand what’s happening and perhaps I don’t either.

It’s happening right now with someone I’ve known my whole life, right. Ow she disgusts me and I can’t stand to be around her but I know she would do anything I say. Broken

This sounds familiar.

I just thought it was normal behaviour.

Esmoke wrote:I don’t want to hijack your thread so I won’t go on and on about it but I will have to read through this thread more so I can understand your situation alittle better.

Oh what do you mean? THAT THE DELUSION COULD TELL YOU ABOUT THE NATURE OF THE PATIENT, HIS AILMENT? Sounds like C.G. Jung's "pseudoscientific" Theory. You must be some kind of HERETIC. Something EVEN THE PSYCHIATRIST CAN'T POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND. THAT THE PATIENT HAS THOUGHTS AND DREAMS AND A PERSONALITY. Even if IT IS a delusion, which it is not.

You can google this btw. Twin flames are the same soul, so they have telepathy. And I learned to use it better than the channelers and spirit guides. Were having our telepathic honeymoon with eB. "please cum for me again, when can you come again". I fear she might finish me before we get physical.

And all this becouse irony is special. So the pope of psychiatry gets to decide; which texts go into the bible. "pills for everyone". AND EVERTHING ELSE IS INVALIDATED, DECLARED HERESY. SO ITS PILLS FOR EVERYONE BY PAPAL SANCTION. Which I've just started taking, becouse they proposed a different therapy, with the warehouse logistics company. The pills are realy strong and stoning, have a multum of side effects, the most pronounced: drowsyness and dryness and tiredness, no strenght in muscles especially. And no effects whatsoever on personality, but I have to try long term to confirm this. Anyway I was prescribed those for psychosis, which I explcitly told the psychiatrist that I dont think I have anymore. "Good boy, yes you are Buddha. Take your pills."

Hahaha and I'm JC. sworn to secrecy since 1994.

Manners73 wrote:Hahaha and I'm JC. sworn to secrecy since 1994.

Hahahahah and I wish it was a delusion. Then I would just ignore everything the voices say and play world of warcraft. BUT THE VOICES ARE REAL AND CONSCIOUS AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH WTF

No it's not a delusion. That's why I've never told a psychiatrist.

I was actually baptisted over my kitchen sink by the spirit of John the baptist.

That was a turning point of my life.