case study: cured narcissist

SelfSerf wrote:

AProphet wrote:SelfSerf, you know that I am a big advocate of psychedelic therapy as a viable alternative, and equate the psychedelic to the spiritual. I enjoyed your posts in this thread very much and would like the thread to remain fair and balanced i.e for every article as the one you posted there are 10x articles like this one: https://www.theguardian.com/society/201 ... apse-study [mdma effective in treating alcoholism] This is not to downplay the dangers of hyperslap (dmt jargon for realy bad trip).

And to contrast the psychedelics which have no known long term side effects and no potential for addiction and abuse I would like to posit that the drug they prescribed me at the psychiatrist, aripiprazol has a multum of side effects including drowsyness, dryness, gastral reflux, and muscle pain and no known antipsychotic properties or effects on the interaction on the two personality-types I identified in my case study. In addition to, becouse of all the side effects and inability to function, it paradoxically makes me take more illegal substances.

I will inject something that am fairly certain you will not enjoy.

Of course psychiatric drugs have side effects. And none of it is perfect science but in cases of cluster B personalities, a lot of it is about damage control. To just again reiterate a very basic point - being unaware and unable to take true responsibility for one´s actions means that you are bound to have an effect that people might consider either odd/obtrusive/completely unacceptable. Now the Narcissists thinks he is above all that, making corrections to their presentation (false self) if they don´t like what others mirror back to them about their behavior or if they´ve gone anti-social or might even welcome this as a proof that they are on the right track (I am having an effect on others, therefore am doing something right. At least I exist, am meaningful in some sense)

When I tried MDMA (+microdose of psilocybin) it to me felt odd, weird. Unenjoyable. As in, the bare minimum of being a member of society I could bear but I didn´t care for other people. I didn´t like that I had to suddenly take into account the fact that other people exist and I would have to respond to them. Having created a world where my mind was capable of orienting itself only in that limited world, other people became no more than obstructions.

The thing is, what you are currently doing (a self-described case study of a "cured narcissist" - ain´t that a grandiose prospect, having yourself admitted that all of it is practically impossible - a pwNPD will scoff at even divine intervention) is experimental at best and utter madness at its worst. There is no proof that administering exorbitant amounts of mind-expanding substances by yourself to yourself accounts to having therapeutic benefits.

The one thing I have noticed is that you seem to applaud some of my posts randomly here and there (mainly those agreeing with your view of the world), and then there are far and few between that put you off immediately. Might it be that our settings are at a point of being just soo similarly far gone on the path from normal reality and at different points in time our viewpoints converge? That´s why you agree.

Of course our maladjusted brains would tell us that it iss exactly the right place to be, after all our minds are infallible, right? (Your own words, from an older post) No doubt anything going against that, which reiterates just how far we have steered from neurotypicality, would present to you as morbid. But the real litmus test would be...is it wrong? One suffering from NPD would always have to compare the inner realities against how life actually pans out when you are out of your own head.