Inverted Narcissistic Craving

Too bad I have to go to work. Anyway I remembered something. For the narcissist there is no such thing that someone knows something that he doesnt. The narcissist is all powerfull and knows everything. Noone can just make a statement and tell the narcissist something he doesnt know. Thats why you are suposed to grace the gods with questions. There are no other options. The narcissist will share his divine knowledge.

ViniStonemoss wrote:

covertunsure wrote:Do you mean trusting my gut, e.g. about my attractiveness, etc.?

I meant trust your guts regarding your narcissism.

Because I don't want to have pathological narcissism--that idea is very painful to me and I want to deny it.

covertunsure wrote: I feel I need to be this in order to be special, awe-inspiring, and most of all, to win over and find love with someone I'm super attracted to and who I'm proud to be with because of their high sexual marketplace value.

That sure sounds like a narcissistic fantasy.

I don't know. Like I said, I kind of recognize that I'm NOT that at some level, but I feel I NEED to be it in order to be worthy and "enough"/adequate. I also do expect attention as though I were that, so the intellectual realization and the entitlement are at (painful) odds with each other.

Akuma wrote:What I see here is that his therapist cued his OCD apparently, I wouldnt call that self-information. He has been in these loops for years. Sure, theres nothing wrong or right about it, but its also not useful.

Right. I thought that if he could trust his intuition that led him here in the first place, he could move on to solving something else.

Sometimes you need people to validate your intuition, because you are used to let people define you.

But there is a possibility I am being naive about this...

"Solving something else?" Like what? Pathological narcissism is my biggest problem and what prevents me from having happiness and romantic and career success.

I want to be someone's supply. That was the craving.

Zoicite23 wrote:I want to be someone's supply. That was the craving.

Reminds me of parentification

Nobody gonna adress the elephant in the room? remember that study that got raped?

Zoicite23 wrote:I want to be someone's supply. That was the craving.

I can relate up to a point.

Akuma is right about parentification.

In House of Cards, Claire started off as Frank's supply, but she progressively grows aware that there is a lot of distance between them. This is because, in my opinion, their relationship started off as a fantasy.

Sometimes you got to live your fantasy though, live it through to see how it feels.

AProphet wrote:Nobody gonna adress the elephant in the room? remember that study that got raped?

Man, you post a lot of interesting and sometimes obscure stuff that is sometimes difficult to follow but then go rampaging by posting blatantly abrasive stuff such as this. It never fails to make me chuckle.

ViniStonemoss wrote:

Zoicite23 wrote:I want to be someone's supply. That was the craving.

Sometimes you got to live your fantasy though, live it through to see how it feels.

Not quite certain how this ties into the thread but my fantasy is a relationship with an older woman (i.e. cougar) . In reality it’s probably nothing like it’s cracked up to be in my mind but a part of me really wishes I at least could try it out. It’s probably a mixture between a very sexua sense of wanting to succumb and simultaneously adorel (porn has ravaged my brain since before the teenage years) and not having had a real mother. The fear of engulfment would probably be too real though, as even in my last relationship where the girl I was with had a strong motherly quality to her, I felt somewhat mmasculated and overpowered by the aspect of her that was strong and feminine

Baby Big Man (I want a mommy)

Maybe I posted this in the wrong forum *filw under sexual paraphilias?*

SelfSerf wrote:

AProphet wrote:Nobody gonna adress the elephant in the room? remember that study that got raped?

Man, you post a lot of interesting and sometimes obscure stuff that is sometimes difficult to follow but then go rampaging by posting blatantly abrasive stuff such as this. It never fails to make me chuckle.

Its true I was ######6 disproving the study. I have a bachelors in physics. I know how to write studies.
True, it wasnt in a scientific form, but thats becouse I cba source it and write a proper paper. Was just ad hoc, in comments to the study. That they found out NPD actualy has empathy. But thats idiotic. Its defined by lack of empathy. You cant have empathy in that system becouse only you exist. Narcissistic. Other people dont exist. But thats only part of the explanation.