NPD Leveraging/Faking BPD

Yeah... it’s a weird situation, but it’s why I ended up in foster care when I was a kid. My dad didn’t know and once he found out I was in foster care a couple years later we never talked about it, my mom.... she didn’t exactly see anything wrong with it. I’m not upset by it. Although, it probably played a role in some of my problems...

Of course it played a role. I am upset reading it. I am also angry at parents. Such negligence in general.
It doesn't matter if you are not upset consciously. Subconsciously probably is traumatizing.

Other people seem to usually be upset by it, and I would be upset by it if it was some other kid, but I have no real connection or feelings about my situation. But that’s enough about me, hahahah. I feel like I’ve said way too much in this thread.

I don't really have anything useful to add to this thread.

I just wanted to say that I never really understood the need some people have for tempestuous relationships. The discussion reminded me of my only relationship with a cluster B personality, which was 18 months with a girl diagnosed with BPD. She spent some time trying to get me into fights, which didn't work because the more you push me the more I dissociate and the colder I become. Everything also seemed so forced both in term of arguements and more romantic things from kissing to sex. She couldn't flow and seemed to have got it into her bonce that violence and passion were the same thing.

I don't know why she stayed really, I can count the on one hand the number of times I've yelled at someone since I became an adult and I've certainly never done it to a romantic partner. Equally I used to push her away if she started trying to force something romantic as the affective dissonance (I don't know how else to put it) was abrasive. She had to be told firmly NO when she tried using violence and it was always obvious when she was trying to manipulate and was genuinely in pain which gradually put an end to that behaviour. It was kind of sad really, there used to be these 'flashes' of an almost childlike personality, like of a girl at 13-14 whom I rather liked and then she'd disappear to be replaced by the nonsense again.

As I said in no way relevant, it just made me think of it.

Quoth wrote: It was kind of sad really, there used to be these 'flashes' of an almost childlike personality, like of a girl at 13-14 whom I rather liked and then she'd disappear to be replaced by the nonsense again.

Did we used to date? Someone told me this exact same thing before lol