A Quick Hello From One Who Has Healed

by **Livinginmyhead** » Thu May 21, 2015 12:30 am

It's been a while so just wanted to say hello and let everyone know that my life is truly amazing. Every moment is what we make of it.

Some of you will never believe my story - and that's okay. I love you anyway. It was all true, it is all true, and there really is a cure for NPD and for pretty much all other personality disorders.

My journey has deepened and deepened and I was able to strip away a few more layers of ego, finding more and more peace, love, wisdom, etc. I sold my possessions and have become homeless on purpose, sharing the truth of what I've discovered with people. It's been an amazing road. I've learned so much - and I continue to learn.

Love is the answer to all that is broken within us... Love is the healing that is needed. Love is the way to step beyond. I love you all - and hope that you to find freedom.

Hi,

I would wonder how your close personal relationships have changed since your enlightenment?

And by personal relationships I don't mean a bunch of strangers you meet on the street that you want to help as you spread your teachings. I mean your real, close relationship with family, spouse, children. Those relationships are a measure of true healing imho.

It is the only realm where you can show that you truly put someone else's interests and needs ahead of your own. Because teaching people can equally be for selfish reasons too.

It's very nice that you want to bring redemption to a whole bunch of strangers, but unless you can care deeply about a very limited few, I wouldn't believe that you truly cured your narcissism.

And I'm sorry about being skeptical, it's just my nature.

by **VioletAasA** » Thu May 21, 2015 10:37 pm

Livinginmyhead wrote:It's been a while so just wanted to say hello and let everyone know that my life is truly amazing. Every moment is what we make of it.

Some of you will never believe my story - and that's okay. I love you anyway. It was all true, it is all true, and there really is a cure for NPD and for pretty much all other personality disorders.

My journey has deepened and deepened and I was able to strip away a few more layers of ego, finding more and more peace, love, wisdom, etc. I sold my possessions and have become homeless on purpose, sharing the truth of what I've discovered with people. It's been an amazing road. I've learned so much - and I continue to learn.

I've also started to write a book on how to awaken ones self - It's about half way done and it's all being posted for free here: http://homelessontheave.com/

Love is the answer to all that is broken within us... Love is the healing that is needed. Love is the way to step beyond. I love you all - and hope that you to find freedom.

Hello!
Thank you for sharing.
I wish you well on journey.

by **Nightdrive** » Fri May 22, 2015 11:31 pm

Sorry but that entire website reads like the product of a mind which has suffered a nervous breakdown of David Icke proportions. I'm not even intending to be hurtful here, it honestly looks like you have cracked. I mean, if you're happy you're happy, so good for you on that score I guess. But objectively your life is in the gutter right now.. if what you've written is true.

by **solstice1962** » Sat May 23, 2015 12:47 am

I've long thought what might happen if an N suffered complete lose of memory. Would he remember he was narcissistic? There is a novel in which this happened. Ursula Brangwen in D H Lawrence's "The Rainbow" falls gravely ill and recovers as a near as damn it normal person.

by **Akuma** » Sat May 23, 2015 6:42 am

Nightdrive wrote:Sorry but that entire website reads like the product of a mind which has suffered a nervous breakdown of David Icke proportions. I'm not even intending to be hurtful here, it honestly looks like you have cracked. I mean, if you're happy you're happy, so good for you on that score I guess. But objectively your life is in the gutter right now.. if what you've written is true.

I always thought Icke was just conning ^^.
But I've been in a similar situation once when I was about 16.
It does feel pretty good actually, because your narcissism becomes self-sufficient. Once you set up such a belief system your perfect object becomes God and you are the perfect subject as a chosen one / enlightened one etc, either wanting to merge with or having merged with god and you gain supply by this delusional interaction or bettering of yourself. Narcissism in it's purest form really.
Nothing one can do in such a case, belief blinds people beyond repair already when they're less damaged.

by **Truth too late** » Sat May 23, 2015 7:30 am

Akuma wrote:It does feel pretty good actually, because your narcissism becomes self-sufficient. Once you set up such a belief system your perfect object becomes God and you are the perfect subject as a chosen one / enlightened one

That's struck a nerve with me. I did something similar to that a couple times. Kind of an OCD'ish overreaction to loss of supply. A feeling of taking a nobler course (if not divinely inspired), sacrificing. In fact, I could give an example and it would give my identity away. (As Ron Burgundy said: "I don't know how to put this. But, I'm kind of a big deal. People know me." :roll:

).

OTOH: I can see how self-awareness can lead to wanting to make up for passing through life self-interested. Especially being older and having more of a sense of loss and/or guilt. It's kind of tough to face an entrenched lie and change a lifetime of behaviors (forming normal relationships). Old dogs, new tricks?

I could see how doing what the OP's doing could be genuine. Maybe the best that can be done under his circumstance. (But, definitely a good warning that it could become a continuation of the same traits.).

by **TheLord** » Sun May 24, 2015 6:35 am

OP I have never seen a NPD who is a trully spiritual or relgious or God believing person. Some NPD may use Spirituality, God or religion for N supply but that's about it. Trying to tell them that spirituality, connection with the source, we are all one etc just goes over their head. This is like lack of empathy or almost zero empathy, they just don't have it, so, they don't get it.

I wonder if you had similar experience being NPD, when you were not 'cured'. Becasue if you had, you would probably understand me that although is very true help and right direction for them, just like meditation and reading buddhist literature, they will rather think you as an insane person, or stupid or some kind of fraud, not somebody who can relate with them having NPD previously and wants to help hem in the same way a woman who was raped and now is on a mission to protect other woman from sexual abuse.

I hope you reply to this and don't take this offensively.

by **Truth too late** » Sun May 24, 2015 9:31 am

TheLord wrote:I wonder if you had similar experience being NPD, when you were not 'cured'. Because if you had, you would probably understand me that although is very true help and right direction for them, just like meditation and reading buddhist literature, they will rather think you as an insane person, or stupid or some kind of fraud, not somebody who can relate with them having NPD

You addressed the OP. I hope you don't mind if I saying:

If by uncured you mean not self-aware, I think most Ns don't recognize being N. I don't think they'll reach his blog in the first place.

But, that would make for an interesting blog entry: to address how N traits pervert a person's spiritual life (using God as a mirror), and how being self-aware and spiritual is different.

Something concerns me about the blog entry: "My Doubt Nearly Claimed Me." It's about an episode with cannabis which caused him "to doubt." My experience has been that cannabis exposes your subconscious, bringing to mind things you should think about. If what he described happened to me, I wouldn't take that as "almost losing my faith." I'd take it as a wake-up call that maybe I'm overdoing the spiritual, alternative lifestyle.

by **easyfromhere** » Sun May 24, 2015 10:55 am

I read bits of the blog.
Its a thing of beauty.

A Quick Hello From One Who Has Healed

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