How did you survive after self-awareness?

"the intense shame and fragmentation of my ego right now is horrendous" yeah I felt that, a lot of anxiety and panic related to awareness as well. Like the awareness of being a narcissist was more like feeling like you are an android who became self-aware for the first time, or perhaps like the scene from BB where hank found out walt was a drug lord. what causes me panic though are the other minor traits like feeling special or being self-absorbed, and yeah that disavowed entitlement thing messed me up as well, like I see someone getting something I'm not maybe u know the feeling. like nons don't feel these things or experience these things so you know there's something off.

anyway yeah the vulnerability thing gets to me as well, like I'll notice I'll analyze other peoples movements and relate them to me personally because of the insecurity but I've gotten better at not doing this as much/being less vulnerable.

you have to be careful self-diagnosing, but if you're worried about being a narcissist you're not a narcissist. go see a therapist. a lot of times we look at symptoms and we think we are sick like webmd. It's better to go see a doctor or a therapist. narcissisitc traits does not equal NPD