by downtherabbithole » Tue Aug 16, 2016 2:46 am
I am unsure if this forum is for the therapist's benefit or for the patient's, however I would appreciate an opinion from someone familiar with NPD I read the majority of 'The Narcissist's Daughter' after my Dad explained that my Grandmother and the majority of the females on his side of the family are in his opinion narcissists. I understood mostly the traits portrayed and began to wonder if I in fact suffered from this disorder. My family believe me to be a selfish person, and that once upon time I was loving and kind but because my life has led me down a path that was not their plan, that I have become nasty. I am terrified I have this disorder and maybe I am such a good manipulator that my partner cannot see it??? And am I a manipulator?? I cant stand confrontation or having others be angry at me. I recently had a little girl, majority of family is out of country minus two siblings who visited once during pregnancy, one went away around the birth and after returned took nearly two and half weeks to visit. I came to anger when neither visited more than twice, nor got in contact when hospitalised so i lashed out verbally to all when in a group discussion no comment or care was given towards the child but plenty of concern shown for a puppy or a kitten or a new car. Now all my relationships are hanging by a thread with my family. I feel as if I am going crazy, I feel guilty although over what I am not sure, I feel lost. I will not sugarcoat it, my two best friends have been on suicide watch, my two bridesmaids suffer from BorderlinePD and I seem to always get along with others that require reassurance or assistance in someway I feel duty bound to give it. And can relate to each situation/crises. Any opinions on my post are welcome. I have attended therapy before for another issue however the conversation always came back to my parents and it became to tough to face so if anyone has any insight I would greatly appreciate it.