Hello

Hello. I am here to help others with their problems and expand the limits of myself. I don't like to talk about myself so ill some it now and direct any future questions here. .

I have no money or insurance ; before it ran out I was in psychiatric hospitals and seeing doctors since i was 14. I have different diagnosis depending on the doctor but they are as follows , in order of reception ;Schizoaffective ,major depressive disorder with psychotic features, Borderline PD, PTSD , Antisocial PD. I do not believe in diagnosis per se, except as somewhat handy tools in directing approach to treatment. The labeling theory tends to support this. I have lived a life of crime ,homelessness, sexual perversion , underhanded manipulation and abuse , violence, and all manner of nasty things. I accept that I was a bad person , and admitting I have a problem is the first step to recovery. I have quit drinking , using all drugs except marijuana, and made a commitment to reform myself. Where as before all I wanted was to die a glorious death with the world burning around me, now I wish to live a life of peace tranquility and kindness. The dreams of being a dictator , terrorist, or greatest serial killer are behind me and now I hope to be a healer of sorts , and attend nursing school and start my own bushiness if the opportunity has not already been lost.

Hello GhostofGaia. Welcome and thank you for introducing yourself.

It sounds like your thinking and lifestyle have made a dramatic shift toward the better. You are very honest to admit these things about your past and hope you can achieve all that you aspire to.

*hugs* and take care,
Jan