I should be sleeping, but instead I joined this psych forum.

Hello, my name is Eka, or Katie, whatever you'd like to call me.

I came here for several reasons:
1) I was bored.
2) I do, indeed, have a history of mental illness. (Don't we all?) Sadly, I have never been treated for any of it effectively and am not participating in treatment right now. : / I've just been kinda duking it out on my own....disorders are things I should not be trying to tackle on my own, especially since they are serious things. But I am. Sigh.
3) Sooo....I thought I would come here just to talk with friendly people. To discuss, and share. Sharing is caring. Sharing with people who are level, and really do understand, could be helpful in dealing with things on my own.

I am a young female adult, age 19, in Cosmetology School. I enjoy writing, drawing, reading, debate, philosophy, and learning. I don't really have much of a life to be honest. I'm in that stage of my life where I'm trying to figure things out.

The reason I do not attend therapy or take pills is one because they haven't worked for me, no-one actually sat down and gave me a diagnosis and plan, and I was not interested in a plan, so with us working against each other that fizzled. Pills did nothing for me. Added together, I just could not afford the cost. I was in debt over my head in senior year of high school thanks to hospital bills, prescription bills, therapist bills. Rather than call me to see if I was okay once I stopped going, my therapist never called me to check up at all. The only contact I got from anyone was my bill. They didn't care about my health or rather I was taking my pills or not as long as I paid the bill. *shrugs* Can't say I blame them. Tough times.

Not whining, but hey, if I can't afford it and it isn't helping me....why not stop all of it all together. I'm not here to have pills shoved down my throat, but I make an effort to respect everyone's opinion and be as friendly as I can. I'm not encouraging avoiding help either, please don't take me the wrong way. In fact, I do encourage getting help to others when they obviously need it.

It would be nice to get to know you all. I look forward to some conversation, and perhaps sharing some of my creative efforts if I can find the place for it. Thanks for reading!

Hello and welcome to the forum.

Ekaetriana wrote:Rather than call me to see if I was okay once I stopped going, my therapist never called me to check up at all.

It would be breaking boundaries if therapists decided to call their patients just to see how they are. If you told them you were stopping therapy, it is only appropriate that they not call. They can't do a lot to help you if you decide you to stop going.

Although you may have felt therapy was not for you, you are only really young and so might not have had experience with the right therapist for you yet. I feel like you are a bit overly critical of it, considering that it doesn't really sound as if you have extensively had therapy with multiple arrays of therapists over a period of many years and then come to the conclusion that it doesn't work for you...

Anyway, welcome and I hope you enjoy being part of the community here.

I have had about five therapists over eight years, but you are right, that isn't really enough to judge. I am a bit critical of everything as it's difficult for me to take chances.

The thing is, why I expected to be called, was I was required to attend therapy, that was a condition of becoming outpatient. If I didn't attend, or I didn't take my medication, I was supposed to be called in. While I wasn't exactly ordered to attend, and I don't think there would be consequences if I admitted to it, but I was supposed to be called when I stopped going and asked to come back. I never told anyone. I just stopped. My hope in the matter is that they felt I was fine on my own, or that they dropped my case all together. Either way, I haven't been called so it's best if I forget about it and move on.

Thanks for the welcome.

Ekaetriana wrote:The thing is, why I expected to be called, was I was required to attend therapy, that was a condition of becoming outpatient. If I didn't attend, or I didn't take my medication, I was supposed to be called in. While I wasn't exactly ordered to attend, and I don't think there would be consequences if I admitted to it, but I was supposed to be called when I stopped going and asked to come back. I never told anyone. I just stopped.

Yeah I can see why in that situation you expected to be called. I'm pretty surprised they didn't follow it up with you if that was the case....

Hopefully you work out whatever will be best for you to help you, whether that be therapy or whatever else. It's good that you are reaching out to start talking to people here.

Yeah, she promised she would call to ask why and try to get me motivated to keep going, but no cigar.

Thanks, I like being able to sit down and think clearly enough to type out my thoughts. I cant do that in real time.