Aloha

New here hopefully i can gain information on why I am so weird. I just turned 20 years old and from California. Hello everyone!

Hi touchthesky,

I'm curious so I'll ask. What makes you think you're "weird"?

I ask because it varies a lot here on this forum with what brought each of us here seeking some understanding.

Some come to figure out what's wrong with themselves. And some come to figure what's wrong with everybody else.

You said you wanted help, so take the first step and tell us a little bit about why you think you need help.

Oh and Welcome to the site

Its very embarrassing...to put it in the best way possible, I am very distant from people. Family, friends, strangers. Before I was so loud and loved to have plenty of people around me. Now I cant even form my thoughts into words. People talk to me and I just nod and say "yeah"(every day). I noticed this about myself a couple years ago and ever since then its gotten worse.

Yesterday it really hit me. My BEST friends from when I was young reunited. We were so close, basically like my brothers. now i know its been awhile since I saw them, but I could not even have a normal conversation. They were telling me all these great hilarious memories we had but i couldn't even talk. I made them feel so uncomfortable. It was obvious to everyone how much i changed. I missed them so much but I wasn't able to show it, that was painful.

This really sucks and I know i'm not going to wake up one day and everything is better. any advice I feel desperate and depressed about it

Hello and welcome to the forum.

I'm sorry to hear you are having trouble communicating with people and are starting to feel distant from them. I think it is a really good start that you are reaching out for some support here.

It sounds like this has been a change for you from the way you used to communicate with people. Have you considered seeing a professional therapist to get some help with this issue?