Newly diagnosed with BPD but nothing new about the symptoms.

Hi there,
I am newly diagnosed with BPD but with that I also have depression, anxiety and ADHD. Great combination . I'm not really sure what I want from this site. All I know is that I am going through a very difficult time in my life and hoping to gain something from anyone who truly understand what it is like to live in this hell of this so called disease they call it. I know mental illness is a disease I just don't know why I have such a hard time accepting it. I always feel why can't I just be normal but I know nothing out there is really normal. I guess I just mean why can't I be socially acceptable or at least live a life that is acceptable to others and myself. I am very hard on myself and right now not doing much in my life. Everyday is a challenge and just getting by is tough. I know right now I sound extremely negative but the pain is real right now.

Oh goodness, I know how you feel. Believe me. I've spent a lot of time wishing I was normal, wishing I hadn't had the psychotic break. But it happened. Nothing will ever change that. Its taken me a long time to accept that, but I have...at least I think. This site is good for talking with other kindred souls about the painful path of mental illness. I'm sorry you're in so much pain right now, but it will end. Believe me.

Mab